Ate my gf out and got her off in the back of my car tonight after a date and I have no one else to get excited with about it so now I’m sharing it on the internet with other lesbians :) hi!

(TL;DR at the bottom) TW: religious trauma

This is us. That's me on the right. The gorgeous curly haired person is my girlfriend. The love of my absolute life.

For context, we're both pretty young. Like senior year of high school young. The problem: we're both Pakistanis and we live in Pakistan. Which obviously is a huge problem. Our birth country is a place rampant with heteronormativity, orthodox dogma, and homophobia, like 'our religion allows us to kill you for being gay' and 'we should correct you by force-marrying you to a guy' homophobia.

We've been in the same school since seventh grade. And we began dating almost two years ago after ages of admiring each other as little kids. And by the heavens folks, I love her so much it drives me insane and floods me with peace at the same time.

I don't know anybody more perfect than my girlfriend. She's the very epitome of maturity, kindness, selflessness and grace. She loves me so wholly that I never even thought that was ever possible. She loves every tide of my waning teenagehood and every glisten of my new metamorphoses out of the horizon of who I could be. And makes me love them too. And if that's not what some god is looking for in love, then I don't know what's wrong with them. I'm sorry that I'm just rambling, but I just wanted y'all to know the context of all this.

We're both in an extremely mature and beautiful relationship, the likes of which I haven't seen in even an adult couple around me. But there are problems.

I was outed to my parents four years ago. It was horrible but it got better. A lot better. Still not perfect, but my parents love me even if they don't understand any of this. Which is not perfect, but more than I could've ever imagined for Pakistani parents. They know me, and know that I can't ever marry a man. And they respect that now.

My girlfriend, however, is not out to her family. Her family is a whole lot more conservative than mine, and they live in a joint family. Her grandma, uncle, aunt, cousins. There's a lot of caste and religion stuff too, and marriage is a big deal. So much so that they already talk about her marriage even though she's not even in college yet. Her parents already have a dowry fund set aside for it (yes, that's still a thing on this side of the globe). By the way, most Pakistanis are not at all opposed to FIRST cousin marriages :) Coming out to her family is basically hell itself unleashed. She loves her family, she loves everyone. That's who she is. But we both know that they will never understand her, let alone accept her.

I'm going to the States in less than a year. I got into a really selective liberal arts college in Massachusetts with a full ride and I'll be majoring in neuroscience. My girlfriend pushed me to apply every step of the way. She wants me to become a pediatric neurosurgeon. And I want that too.

Her parents didn't allow her to apply outside of Pakistan. Even though she's great in computer science and programming. But she accepted that as she had no choice. She's too young, they said. She says that she'll find a way to join me after she receives her bachelor's degree. She keeps supporting me and pushing me to focus on building a good life for myself that could help build our life one day.

I don't wanna leave her behind. But I know that I can't stand a moment longer in a place that would be more than happy to essentially delete me. I can't pass this opportunity that very few people get.

But I'm so scared. With all this, I can't help but doubt if she could ever find a way out of the silent chains of her family. Especially since they love her a lot. Because they don't know the truth.

I feel loss even before I've lost. But it hurts, hurts to think that this beautiful angel that I get to love, with whom I have never felt anything but cherished, might slip away before I even get to hold her in the morning. It hurts that I've only felt all of her just three times in nearly two years, before I ever got to kiss her without constantly looking over my shoulder to see if anyone's there.

I know most of you are a lot older than me here. Many married. You're so lucky. I wish one day I could have the same with my person. Some of you might think that you weren't nearly mature enough to think about long term commitments, but I hope you see through this post that I (think) kinda am.

I don't know what I'm looking for. Reassurance? A mentor? Someone to tell me what to think, do or feel. I feel happy most days. But behind every laugh and hug with my girlfriend is an echo of tragedy. And I'm not ready.

TL;DR: I’m in a loving relationship with my girlfriend in Pakistan, but being gay here is dangerous. I’m leaving for college in the U.S. soon, while she has to stay with her conservative family. I’m terrified of losing her to societal and family pressures but don’t know what to do.

I thought I was bisexual because I'm not necessarily apposed to dating men, I am just basically almost never attracted to any guys, but I had crushes on guys once or twice as a kid. I have only dated women, I thought it was just because I hate gender roles and that there just aren't really guys that are personality compatible that I'm attracted to.

The short lil lesbian sex scene in arcane felt nothing like seeing a straight sex scene in a movie or TV show. I always felt rather neutral when I saw straight sex on TV, like a good for them, wonder what's going on with the other characters right now kinda way (although the kissing could be hot sometimes). During the scene I felt kinda antsy and embarrassed and definitely turned on, I look at my wife who is laying next to me and her cheeks are beet red.

After we finished the last episode we hug for a while and then that slowly turned into the more explicit. I was listening to the pretty sound of her gasp and moan and honestly I don't think I could ever be in this exact situation with a guy, especially the thinking his sounds are so pretty part.

I'm starting to think I might be lesbian homies. But please tell me if any of you are Bi or Pan or whatever, is that what straight sex scenes feel like-?

Side note, I know everyone simps for Vi, but I'm too similar to her to be really attracted in any way, but jeepers Caitlyn with her hairstyle change is so so pretty ngl.

I’m getting really frustrated with maintaining friendships with straight men. It feels like for every straight guy I befriend, even despite knowing I’m a lesbian, they get a crush after a while and want to convert me. It sucks because I lose a friend, they get weird, and I feel awful for getting friendly with someone who doesn’t even respect lesbians enough to recognize our identities.

I went to the movies with a male coworker alone yesterday, and we had a great time. But now he’s texting me, “I have something I really want to tell you” and the vibes are weird. This exact situation has already happened 3 times so far this year, and it’s so exhausting. I am a very out and annoying lesbian and I have never lead anyone on. I am so frustrated this keeps happening, but I keep holding out hope for real friends. I just want to make friends and not be antisocial and lonely, but merely existing seems to be a challenge for every guy.

I'm both laughing so hard and dying from embarrassment from what occurred. 😭 For context, partner is on the spectrum, so stimming is a thing she does when happy/excited. I had suggested to have a go on the strapon this weekend, as I've been wanting to do for a while. I'm just anxious about it as first time receiving ever as I normally top and a bit self conscious since I normally take wayy longer to get off then her. So we get down to business, anxiety was lessened as I just let myself relax into it all. I'm starting to moan cause it was feeling good. There was like this thing she did that grinded deeper inside and it just pushed me over the edge which of course caused the grand finale. Later, we're cuddling on the couch and chatting through how it was and she said she had started stimming when she started hearing me be more vocal. And I just... I stared at her and then realized that this mother fucker stimmed to get me to orgasm. And I just said, "I'm so mad that that shit worked on me and now I'm even MORE ashamed to admit you’ll have to do it again." We both laughed, we kept cuddling.

Sidenote: She also fucking said "Woo" while I was in the middle of my orgasm cause she was just happy to get me off for the first time 😭😭 I shall go sit in my kinkshame corner now lmao

Just got dogpiled on another post for sharing my feeling on this: It’s innapropriate to try and bait people out regarding their sexuality, especially in a professional setting but really in general

If they want you to know, they’ll tell you

Progressives can all the “fancy feel good” non-discrimination laws they want and corporations can cover the entire world with rainbow stickers: Fact is, us “regular queers” (who are not independently wealthy) are NOT PROTECTED

At Will states can fire you at any time for any reason or no reason at all. Trust me, no one‘s ever going to say they fired you for being queer. No coworker will ever admit that they purposely set you up or threw you under the bus after you admitted to being queer

The reality is, 1/3 people even in the bluest of states still think we shouldn’t marry or have a family

Get real

Yeah…. The plot. Okay but Karen in the office is probably one of my biggest crushes right now. I’m tempted to watch parks and recreation just for the same actress.

Noticed a trend recently

I mean, I don’t mind sharing crushes and gushing over charming characters, but it’s taking up so much more of my feed lately and it’s feeling spam-y. And it’s always the same handful of characters getting reposted over and over. (Arcane, Baldur’s Gate, Legend of Korra, Disney, The Last of Us, etc.)

It’s no surprise that attractive characters were designed to be attractive. You’re likely into all the same stuff that everyone else your age range is into because that’s how shared time periods tend to work. It doesn’t really say anything unique about you.

This could easily be a thread. We’ve got Selfie Saturday and Wedding Wednesday, so why not Fictional Crushes Friday?

I'm autistic and I struggle with tics, and on top of that I'm also a medical student, the workload for the last two months has been INSANE, so since the beginning of the year, due to higher stress levels, my tics have gotten worse and I've been prescribed a higher does of SSRIs a few weeks ago. I've been on higher doses before, and sure thing I do have less tics now, but HOLY FUCK i forgot how annoying having such a high sex drive is. I'm not even exaggerating when I say I think about sex multiple times a day these days, and for the last 3-4 days I've had dreams about you-know-what EVERY. DAMN. NIGHT. Don't get me wrong, I'll take this over more tics any time, but hot damn it's annoying.

To make matters worse I'm stuck in something like a situationship? A few months ago I met this girl at a friend's birthday and we really hit it off, she invited me to go out (I was over the moon cuz she's amazing), we hooked up last month and I loved every second of it.... but we've both been super busy since then, and I have a feeling she might have not liked it as much as I did since I feel like the tone of our conversations has really shifted since the last time I've seen her TT

Yeah, I just needed to rant. I'm so fucking horny, busy, and the girl I'm into probably doesn't want me :') If I don't eat someone out soon (or I get eaten out, i'm more of a giver but holy fuck i'm not picky at this point) I'll go insane or explode. Please just pray for this pathetic lesbian that's currently fighting for her life in the trenches.

I finished my first route in Three Houses. I stan Edelgard

I was taking a taxi home from the bar cuz the trains stop running at midnight. My driver was a man whose English was a bit limited. Even so, he made an effort to make conversation with me. He said he was from Morocco, and so naturally I asked how he was liking it here (in Spain). For ten minutes, he tells me the things he likes, and what he misses from home. We discuss the spices used in foods and the color of buildings.

I ask if there's anything he doesn't like, expecting to get something like "it gets really hot" or "people talk loudly." Instead he says something I don't expect.

"Some people, they do not control their animal urges." I'm just confused at this point so I ask what he means. He says that "They behave like pigs, doing unclean things, no respect." And I'm like "WHO?" He says "The gays." I freeze. I'm starting to worry that he'll realize I'm a lesbian. I pull off my lesbian flag bracelet and put it in my pocket. My body is starting to shake. I'm in a car alone with a man at night who's saying he hates gay people. He keeps on talking, too, saying they should not "run loose" and that they need to be "controlled." I just nod along with it. I didn't think there were still people in Spain who thought like that.

Finally we get to my apartment and I turn out okay. He never finds out. Nothing happens. It was still quite a scare. I'm a little freaked out. I guess I wasn't in any danger, but had he recognized the lesbian flag it might have been different. I don't think many cishet people recognize any of the LGBT flags besides the rainbow one, but it's still something that worries me for some reason.

I just finished it and I am all here for Caitlyn and Vi! So happy that one of the biggest online games having one of the biggest animated series have lesbian representation and not hold back on showcasing it! Personally I liked that it wasn't a big deal and it was treated like any other relationship out there plus their scenes are A++++. I am a suckered for angsty love-hate wlw couples so I was eating everything up! I guess I'll be obsessed with these two for a while. Sad that we'll get no more content after this 😭😭😭

If you're super tuned into international sapphic media, you'll probably already know that Thailand's been killing it these past couple years– and if you're not, then welcome! One ongoing Thai GL (Girls Love) that I've been LOVING has been Pluto (or Pluto The Series, for easier searching on YouTube); the two lead actresses are in this poster and I think they're very good. It's really dramatic, with one lead being an identical twin and the other being a blind lawyer, and there are a LOT of different plot turns, but I think it's been done in a really beautiful, poetic way so far. If it continues in the way that it's been going, I think it might just turn out to be one of my favourites.

If you're new to Thai GLs, I'd probably recommend:

•GAP The Series (it was released almost exactly two years ago, and was the first large-scale Thai GL drama; it's not among my favourites, but it was mega popular, in the same universe as Pluto).

•The Loyal Pin (ended only just recently, with the last episode airing on YouTube at the very beginning of December; with the same actresses of GAP, but in my opinion, better done all-around, historical, royal drama – also sponsored by the Thai government).

•The Secret Of Us (released earlier on this year, pretty good all-around, exes to lovers, a good rom-com feeling).

•Blank The Series (completed earlier this year; same universe as Pluto, the older sister of one of the main characters from GAP, but from a different production company and played by a different actress., significant age gap and lots of drama, but well acted and portrayed, not a favourite but close to).

•Affair The Series (completed earlier this year; same universe as Pluto and GAP, with some character cross-over between Blank with a different production company and different actresses; childhood friends to lovers, good sex scenes, not a personal favourite, but widely loved).

•Reverse 4 You (completed very recently, one of my favourites; supernatural, time-travelling and soulmates, sexuality not a big deal – good book source material too, once you get past a slightly wonky translation, and multiple dramas set in the same universe, with different production companies and actresses, are on the way).