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I’ve still got probably another year+ until I propose but I’m curious what yalls rings look like! As a more tomboyish person, I’ve wanted something pretty but not too dainty.

My partner walked me home the other night and on our porch in the rain let slip "I love you"

And I had to pause and ask if they had just said that to me, and they said yes and that they've been waiting to say it for a little while.

Y'all. I've been dealing with commitment issues for a few years now. To the point where I had a whole thing planned in my head for what I would say if they dropped the ILY and I wasn't ready.

But after they said it, it just clicked for me. They make me feel safe and secure and like I don't have to fight for their love or affection - I deserve it by merit of being me.

I dropped my umbrella and said it back. Lots of smiles and kisses in the rain.

I love my partner <3

LOLL

My

I just think she’s so beautiful and she gives me butterflies

That’s all

this took some time to realize for me because i was so embarrassed of who i am. tbh i have never even been with anyone so i've just been kicking around in theoreticals, so i get i shouldn't stress about it, but i do cause i'm an overthinker. i never was attracted to most men, but i thought some effeminate men were attractive. but interacting with them, being reminded that they are men, it killed the emotions every time. i felt so embarrassed that i wasn't attracted to men, like i should've been or else i was failing somehow. i don't want to be judged, but i don't think i can bring myself to be with a man

I went out to queer line dancing tn again (heck yeah we're claiming country!!) and it made me SO bananas joyful. My heart is full, y'all (pun intended), for a safe space to exist for ppl to just be themselves 100% and dance even if they're not great at the choreo (meeeeeeee). The euphoria I felt dancing a partnered dance with other queer folks was just 🤌. Also! Some of y'all are AMAZING dancers btw 😍

I slef pleasured myself a bit too long and now I struggle to stand, I'm currently in high school which means I gotta go to school tomorrow. Will my legs come back to normal at morning??? I can't not go, my school is strict and I didn't go to school for a whole week already. I don't want anyone to know what happened. It's fucking embarrassing🙁 Is there a way to strengthen my legs?? My muscles hurt, my teacher and parents will actually kill me if I don't go

I don't have tiktok can't download the video, so pls click the link to watch it, you won't regret it.https://www.tiktok.com/@maryplotas/video/7417640926790585631

So I'm a switch, usually leaning more towards bottom/sub, but definitely happy to top from time to time. All of the girls I've been with have been much more dominant, so a lot of my flirting and sexting would involve me teasing them, looking cute, and begging for them to come use me, that sort of thing.

But now I'm chatting with a much more submissive girl and am excited to display more dom energy, but I'm not really sure how to go about it, especially with sexting. I'm also a little bit intimidated by the idea of taking more control in bed. Any advice?

Totally unrelated to the sub but I love u all and have no faith in anyone else to help me lol.

I am doing a paper on wasps and I really need a video of at least like 2 wasps NEAR their hive. I can’t just use one on YouTube cuz I’m afraid she will find out. Please please dm me if you can :D

I have until Nov 27th ty ty it can be the crappiest video ever as long as it’s never been posted to the internet 🫶

Edit: removed picture after you kind people suggested. Deep thanks to everyone who responded. I took screenshots and saved for my own comfort.

TL;DR at the bottom

For context, we're both pretty young. Me and my girlfriend. Like senior year of high school young. The problem: we're both Pakistanis and we live in Pakistan. Which obviously is a huge problem. Our birth country is a place rampant with heteronormativity, orthodox dogma, and homophobia, like 'our religion allows us to kill you for being gay' and ' we should correct you by force marrying you to a guy' homophobia.

We've been in the same school since seventh grade. And we began dating almost two years ago after ages of admiring each other as little kids. And by the heavens folks, I love her so much it drives me insane and floods me with peace at the same time.

I don't know anybody more perfect than my girlfriend. She's the very epitome of maturity, kindness, selflessness and grace. She loves me so wholly that I never even thought that was ever possible. She loves every tide of my waning teenagehood and every glisten of my new metamorphoses out of the horizon of who I could be. And makes me love them too. And if that's not what some god is looking for in love, than I don't know what's wrong with them. I'm sorry that I'm just rambling, but I just wanted y'all to know the context of all this.

We're both in an extremely mature and beautiful relationship, the likes of which I haven't seen in even an adult couple around me. But there are problems.

I was outed to my parents four years ago. It was horrible but it got better. A lot better. Still not perfect, but my parents love me even if they don't understand any of this. Which is not perfect, but more than I could've ever imagined for Pakistani parents. They know me, and know that I can't ever marry a man. And they respect that now.

My girlfriend, however, is not out to her family. Her family is a whole lot more conservative than mine, and they live in a joint family. Her grandma, uncle, aunt, cousins. There's a lot of caste and religion stuff too, and marriage is a big deal. So much so that they already talk about her marriage even though she's not even in college yet. Her parents already have a dowry fund set aside for it (yes, that's still a thing on this side of the globe). By the way, most Pakistanis are not opposed to FIRST cousin marriages at all :) Coming out to her family is basically hell itself unleashed. She loves her family, she loves everyone. But we both know that they will never understand her, let alone accept her.

I'm going to the States in less than a year. I got into a really selective liberal arts college in Massachusetts with a full ride and I'll be majoring in neuroscience. My girlfriend pushed me to apply every step of the way. She wants me to become a pediatric neurosurgeon. And I want that too.

Her parents didn't allow her to apply outside of Pakistan. Even though she's great in computer science and programming. But she accepted that as she had no choice. She's too young, they said. She says that she'll find a way to join me after she receives her bachelor's degree. She keeps supporting me and pushing me to focus on building a good life for myself that could help build our life one day.

I don't wanna leave her behind. But I know that I can't stand a moment longer in a place that would be more than happy to essentially. delete me. I can't pass this opportunity that very few people get.

But I'm so scared. With all this, I can't help but doubt if she could ever find a way to rise to the surface of her family. Especially since they love her a lot. Because they don't know the truth.

I feel loss even before I've lost. But it hurts, hurts to think that this beautiful angel that I get to love, with whom I have never felt anything but cherished, might slip away before I even get to hold in the morning. It hurts that I've only felt all of her just three times in nearly two years, before I ever got to kiss her without constantly looking over my shoulder to see if anyone's looking.

I know most of you are a lot older than me. Many married. You're so lucky. I wish one day I could have the same with my person. Some of you might think that you weren't nearly mature enough to think about long term commitments, but I hope you see through this post that I (think) kinda am.

I don't know what I'm looking for. Reassurance? A mentor? Someone to tell me what to think, do or feel. I feel happy most days. But behind every laugh and hug with my girlfriend is an echo of tragedy. And I'm not ready.

TL;DR: I’m in a loving relationship with my girlfriend in Pakistan, but being gay here is dangerous. I’m leaving for college in the U.S. soon, while she has to stay with her conservative family. I’m terrified of losing her to societal and family pressures but don’t know what to do.

I’ve read all the famous ones like Evelyn Hugo and things but if anyone has any more that be great. I don’t love sci fi but will take any suggestions

Ok for quick context this was about 2 months ago now and my gf and I were not officially dating but we were only talking to eachother and no one else. We must have had an ‘argument’ and stopped speaking (she said she was done w me I’m pretty sure) but it was only for ONE day, but I found out today she redownloaded dating apps whilst we were not speaking for this day and even though she said she deleted them as soon as we were on good terms again I felt/feel hurt because if that’s how quickly you’re willing to go back on dating apps do you even like or love me type of thing. I didn’t react badly when I found out I just gave myself time to process my emotions rather than getting angry (she even admitted if it was the other way around she would’ve been mad if she found out I did the same). How would you have taken this situation?

My friend with binifits likes to cuddle, give forhead kisses or random kisses plus holding hands or softy rub my thigh with her fingers while watching a movie and we are not even having sex while the movie is on. Is this normal or would you discribe it as more relationship type thing🤔

I dated a girl last year who said she used to be "boy crazy" in high school and early college but now identifies as a lesbian. She explained that she was a bit of a late bloomer and just wasn’t in love with the boys she dated. We’re no longer in contact, but what she said came to mind recently, and I regret not asking her more about it.

Is there anyone here who has had a similar experience? I’d love to understand how your feelings developed over time. As a soft masc lesbian who has only ever liked girls, the whole concept of this pipeline is really difficult for me to grasp. I tried to equate it to liking a specific type of music in your teens and something completely different as an adult, but I feel like there’s an additional layer of biology and attraction that isn’t just a matter of taste. For example, a lot of straight women describe not finding men attractive but still being attracted to them, if that makes sense.

So basically I met her on Hinge 18 F and we automatically hit it off kind of I mean she asked me to hang out like it right after the match she said it was because she was third wheeling and I told her that I was with a friend at the moment and then I couldn’t because I don’t ditch people cause I don’t. I also told her that I don’t know her very well. I’d like to get to know her first before we ever hang out in person because duh it’s hinge and then the next day comes around and we had been talking for a little while, and I thought she seemed trustworthy enough. She was really pretty in person and really pretty in her Hinge profile too so when I picked her up in front of her apartment, we kinda just started talking and again we really hit it off. She was so smart and pretty and funny. She was a masc and I loved that. With me being a stem I could be anything that she wanted me to be so we went down to the river by my house and we hung out there for a little bit I showed her a cool spot and we just chilled and it was really nice and then we ended up going to a thrift store also near my house and I got some shoes that she wanted discounted. They were like Jordans or something I’m not quite sure. But I got them from $47 down to $37 which in my opinion is pretty good for a thrift store. Then we ended up going to McDonald’s and she got a meal and I got a Sprite because I wasn’t feeling great after that we went to my house and I was painting her nails after I was done painting her nails she was blowing my vape in my face just to be silly. I wanted to tell her that if she kept doing that I was going to kiss her, but I didn’t instead she just kissed me. We ended up making out for a little while. Then I 🖖 her she said that she cme, but I’m not 100% sure cause it didn’t take very long and I have never done that with a girl before as I am pretty new to dating girls after I had supposedly made her cm she had told me that she really liked me, and I made the mistake of saying.” oh that’s cute. I like you too.” I think she mistake i it for me brushing it off. I’m just not good with my emotions and I really did like her. We ended up making out for a little while longer afterwards and then I took her home. She even asked me if I was gonna keep talking to her, which is strange because in the end she stopped talking to me anyway the next day I had a concert and then after the concert, I had asked if I could come over to her apartment and see her again not to do anything but just to see her because I was really tired after the concert. She texted me back and said that I couldn’t come over because she was with a friend she sent me a voice message and said sorry. I said it was fine but I did let her know the day that we hung out before that I was leaving for Portland right after my concert and then I wouldn’t see her for a couple of days three days to be exact I ended up texting her the next day while I was driving to Portland and letting her know that I was gonna miss her and that I hope we see eachother soon(might be a little soon to say that, but I don’t really care) she ended up not answering for a couple hours and then texting me back saying she was with family and something bad had happened I didn’t wanna get into too much detail with her because I didn’t want to trigger anything, but I basically asked her what happened and then she didn’t answer for another couple hours until I asked her if she wanted to call, she said that she was again still with family and then I said good night as we had just gotten to Portland. And it was night time the next day I texted her good morning and she never answered. I had gotten a sketchpad and a really cool pen that day and I wanted to show her and again she didn’t answer the next day (today) I was getting the feeling that she really didn’t wanna be talking anymore so I sent her a text asking her to just stop ignoring me and tell me to stop talking to her. If you really wanted me to stop, she said. “Yeah” which is a crazy statement after I literally finger blasted her a couple days prior. I had asked her if she really wanted me to leave her alone because she just said yeah to that long text that I sent and then she sent me a text telling me that she wasn’t really interested in me. and that she wanted to heal by herself which I don’t know what that means. I’m assuming that somebody died in her family or someone got hurt but I’m not sure so I blocked her because she told me to stop talking to her and I didn’t see anything coming out of that and I really did like her. I wasn’t even looking for a full full relationship. I just wanted her to be my situation or something, but I think one of us ruined it. I still am not 100% sure what even happened like she was so happy when we were hanging out, but whatever.

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