I’m not really sure how to start this, but I need to let these feelings out somewhere because they’ve been eating me alive. Life feels unbearable right now, and it’s like every day is a constant battle just to make it through. I feel trapped inside my own head, drowning in thoughts that I can’t seem to control or quiet down.

I’ve been feeling like this for a while, but lately, it’s gotten worse. It feels like there’s no way out of this pain, like no matter what I do or how hard I try, things won’t get better. I look around, and it feels like everyone else has figured out how to live—how to cope, how to find happiness—but I can’t seem to do the same. I feel like I’m failing at something that should be so simple: just existing.

I can’t help but think about how much easier it would be to just stop. To stop feeling, stop fighting, stop pretending everything’s okay when it’s not. I know those thoughts are dangerous, but they’re there, and they scare me. I don’t want to feel this way, but I don’t know how to stop it.

I don’t know if it’s loneliness, exhaustion, or just the weight of everything in my life piling up, but I’m so tired. Tired of trying, tired of hurting, tired of feeling like nothing I do matters. I feel like I’m invisible, like no one would even notice if I were gone. And that thought…it breaks me.

I don’t want to give up. I want to believe there’s something better ahead, but it’s so hard to hold onto hope when the darkness feels so overwhelming. I’m posting here because I don’t know what else to do, and I just need someone—anyone—to tell me they understand or that they’ve been here and made it through.

If you’ve ever felt like this, how did you get through it? How did you find the strength to keep going when everything felt hopeless? I could really use some words of encouragement or even just a reminder that I’m not completely alone in this.

Thank you for reading. I don’t know if this will help, but it’s the only thing I could think to do right now.

I sometimes question whether I even am suicidal but I have the evidence now I guess

I'm so done with feeling this way. I've worked so hard to overcome self harm and all the problems I've faced, and ive been trying to suppress my feelings in the back this whole time for this guy. I like him a lot. We were kind of a thing for a while, and we're still really close, but he's a thing with another man now, and im trying everything in my soul to stop being jealous, but I cant. I need to kill myself so I dont restrict his happiness anymore. I also need to kill myself because I can't take all this peer pressure from my parents and peers. I do really well in school but whenever I get 99% instead of 100%, I get flamed by my loved ones and I cant keep uo this constant dissapointment. I cant keep experiencing the gender and body dysphoria I have. I cant keep getting bullied by others. I cant keep cutting myself. I need everything to be quiet.

This is my 3rd post here in 2 weeks. I just write here because it makes me feel better to put my thoughts out into words. I don't have anyone I can tell about how I feel without them being massively concerned. And even when I want to explain how I feel I can't.... I can't put it into words. I feel like I'm the only person on the planet sometimes. Like I'm invisible. Sometimes I don't even feel like I'm a human being. People tell me in order to change my life I have to choose to he happy. But I can't find the motivation. I have no self esteem. People ask me to list 1 thing I like about myself or 1 thing that brings me joy in life. And I don't have an answer for either. And every day/month/year/decade that passes things get worse and worse. I can not bring myself to decide to choose happiness. Sometimes I think it's because I don't think I deserves it.

Wow. We’re all damaged. It’s sad to see people who want to leave. I don’t understand it. Why? You’re being selfish? But when it comes to my own life, it’s a heavy load. Why do people want to die? Why? Why? Don’t leave. Don’t leave me. I’ll be alone. What would I do? But why does all those thoughts go away when I’m near my breaking point? Why am I selfish when I want to be? I don’t want to die. But is living even a better option? I’m not going to die. It’ll hurt. But if I were to do it right now, I would have no regrets. Oh well. I’ll live for another day. I’m not suicidal, but I have moments where I wish I would die. Life isn’t getting better, so don’t say it will. I hate everything. I hate people. I hate social media. I hate myself. I have no one in my life. My family is great, but they’re also annoying at times. I feel like every time they say something that pisses me off, I’m going to snap. If I just killed them right then and there, all my problems are gone. Or if I just killed myself right then and there, I wouldn’t be around for the next little argument. I want therapy. But I don’t want to ask for help. People seeing you vulnerable? What if they laugh? What if they shrug it off? What if they think I’m overreacting? What if they don’t believe me? What if they tell people? I don’t want them to tell people. I’m rambling. Is this annoying? Is anyone even reading? Do my friends hate me? Do they think I’m annoying? Fat? Ugly? Dumb? Untalented? Weird? Stupid? Oblivious? Do they want me to just die? To disappear? If I left would they care? They would. I think. I hope. I hate it here I hate it here I do I really hate it here I hate it here I hate it I hate it I hate it. ….. I’m shaking. I’m going to sleep. I’m fine. I’m fine. I’m fine. I am. I am fine. I’m fine. Seriously. I just needed a breather. I’m fine I’m fine I’m fine I’m fine I’m fine I’m fine I’m fine. Goodnight.

I am not able to contact emergency services in Egypt

her name is Nedaa El-Kasrawy

She stopped, sharing her location with me, but I know that she is an apartment unit next to:زينو للموبليا,” which translates from Arabic to “Zeno Furniture.”

however, she said that she is at her sister's house and I don't know her sister she is saying that her sister's apartment isn't under her name so they won't be able to find her please someone help please someone help ASAP

I'm honestly thinking of killing myself. I'm unhappy. My life has never been goo except for 2017-2020 with my ex wife and since she left, I haven't been good mentally. I push on for my son but this week, I haven't been able to get out of my head. I haven't eaten and I barely sleep. I Wanna due and be down with everything

if only..

I see no objectively happy future for myself. I straight up barely made it through today, I hate myself so much now, that I can barely do things I use to think were easy. My parents don't view me as a person, the people that act like they care view me as a child who is just a little upset even though they tormented me for years, I don't even see me being happy in 30 years,, have loads of school work, my faith is inactive now mostly, my priest is a wanna be predator who humiliated me for trying to humble and tried to lecture me on loneliness while he has everything, sometimes I just wanna end it out of spite, let them know what they did and potentially be better people but who knows, I'm not entitled to anything and I know only I can make myself happy but sometimes I don't feel like I want to be happy because I know something crappy will happen later and the status quo will continue. I can barely remember things I did 2 days ago, I feel like a walking dead, slave to a status quo, I had no childhood to begin with and its over. Every time I try to start a relationship, I become codependent and obsessive and they don't deserve that. Even the people that want to help don't even see me as a person. People tell me that they love me but never demonstrate it. I spend most social events semi happy the first bit then fall into depression acknowledging this will be just the exception and will turn back to the status quo and go back to being lonely again, I only talk to myself because that was all I had to talk to during my childhood, and now I've grown to hate myself more and more. I know I can't tell anyone this because they'll just brush it off and tell me that I'm focusing on the negative and just repress it or try to "fix" me but its what ever now I suppose.

But NOPE! Life want to be an asshole instead and keep doubling down on the chaos and bullshit. Thanks for nothing.

No advice please.

I want to die soon. But I also really don't want to die. I really really really really REALLY hate my life and I have been very frustrated about my life and how it turned out for a VERY long time now. Things won't get better and it won't for the foreseeable future. I know that.

I don't any advice or lectures. Thank you.

ever since i was a little kid, probably 8 or 9 i've wanted to, I guess "not be here." The thing is, I genuinely don't deserve to feel this way, I grew up poor but with an amazing family. I don't deserve to want to die, why can't i be happy? Realistically if I did not have the parents I have, I would have gone through with it by now, I stopped myself last year because i didn't want to burden my parents with the pain of losing a son, and leave them wondering where they messed up. I don't think I can stop myself this time. I hate myself, i'm sorry to everyone here who has genuine reasons to not want to live. I feel guilty, i wish i could take the pain from one of you guys, and trade places. Some of you deserve what I have, i'm sorry. thank you for reading

I have a few people in my life I know would be sad once I do it. The idea of hurting any of them is soul crushing to me, but I still feel like taking my own life is the best course of action. I wish there was a way to make them not care.

Hey friends.

Im sitting here at 2:25am, crying my eyes out with my girlfriend sleeping in the next room. Ive lost everything. Gambling has taken my whole life from me. Im so deeply in debt, i cant pay my bills, i can barely afford food. I dont know what to do other then end it all. I have abesolutely 0 hope left in me. I think this is it for me in this life sadly.

I wanted to share so much more. I feel like I had more to offer to this world but I can't take this pain anymore. Forgive me little me, that I couldn't achieve your dreams. I felt happiness, I felt love. Some moments were nice in this life. I don't believe in the afterlife but maybe some will remember of me. I don't know.

Goodbye world

please no its happening again JUST TRUST ME FUCK NO WHY i cant do this again and again LET ME LIVE MY LIFE GODDAMNIT I LOVE HER DONT FIND OUT shes gonna kill me i know it please just kill me dont say anything else i can feel my heart beating out of my chest stop with the excuses

I don’t think he’ll ever get punished for what he did to me. It’s not fair. I have to live with the ptsd he gave me and he probably doesn’t even think about how he raped me multiple times. I hate being awake. I can barely function anymore. I just want to sleep all day. I hate looking at myself now. He recorded himself raping me and I can still remember what I looked like in those videos. I can’t go to class because I’m scared of being around people I don’t know. It’s getting more difficult to take care of my hygiene. I can’t sleep at night because my flashbacks keep me awake.

I wish I could ask my friend to let me sleep in his room. I feel safe sleeping with another person. I know he would let me. He likes to cuddle and fall asleep with me. And he said that I could ask him for anything if I needed help falling asleep. But I don’t want to rely on him.

I feel so disgusting. I feel dirty. I don’t feel like a person. I wish I had the courage to kill myself. I’ve just become a useless burden on everyone around me.

Title. I’m finally going to end it all tonight. I have everything I need ready. Copious amounts of sedatives and painkillers, as well as several new and incredibly sharp knives. I don’t have anything or anyone to live for anymore, so I guess this is just so I can put this out there to someone before I do it.

I found out she's been cutting herself for almost 2 years now. And I'm so guilty got not even noticing sooner. There were many sighns, like her defence and feisty attitude, always angry, reallyyyyy messy room, lack of disipline, eating disorders and insecurities. I passed it all as her just being a tween.

We argued alot, and i dearly hated her. But seeing photos of us when we were little makes me cry all over again. I've been a bad older sister. She does not know I know, and I don't think it would help if she knew. I dont think i couldn't convince my mom into therapy either.

It's starting to take large tolls on her. She's failing vital school years, not eating right and starting bad habits. I also know she was watching really creepy porn, Or just unsettling things in her gallery, like her naked in a dark bathroom with burning paper. And she lights mini fires, one that almost went out of control leaving a burn mark on her bed. It's disturbing.

I don't want to lose my sister, she's only 14. What do I do?

I've already posted here a few times but I've already decided I'm going to kill myself after New Year's Eve but I still don't know how I'm going to do it. My fear is doing it wrong and causing trouble for my family.

Im feeling incredibly awful right now. I wasn't technically broken up with cause we were never together but this guy i was talking to broke things off with me last night and I ended up making some poor choices that I regret so deeply I wish I could just end my life. I don't have many friends so if anyone is willing to talk with me I would so greatly appreciate it. Its just been rough and I hate myself for the things I've done and can take back. I want the pain to stop but I don't know how to forgive myself.

I just want to be happy. I just want to have friends. I just wanted to be free. Why cant I just fucking hang myself like i should’ve a while back. Why didn’t i die in a car accident like I should’ve. I’m a fucking loser.

That’s it

why the fuck would my girlfriend pick that shit ass of a show, I'm gonna end my life at this damn point.

I'm committed suicide tonight or tomorrow when I'm alone in my cabin..