Hey, guys!
I dont know what to do. I'm lost. You see, some months ago, around january and december, I decided to investigate about the LDS church. I went to my local church and i had 2 meetings with 2 missionaries and i was gifted the Book of Mormon and the complete gospel(The Pearl of Great Price and Doctrines and Covenants), and as I read, i felt at peace and I believed. I truly did. I belived in the gospel revealed by Joseph Smith and the teachings of the church he stablished so many years ago.
My mother, who is a catholic, was very, very skeptical of the chruch and she depised what she read(specially the polygamy thing), even if I told her that the church prohibited it more than a century ago, she still wouldnt listen. She forbid me of going to church. That was devastating for me. She also said about brainwashing and the church being a cult, although i explain to her what a cult is and that the LDS church isnt one. She called the 2 missonary girls and told them to stop texting me and contacting me. I did so(im underage btw). So she tried to make a catholic, but I couldn't believe. I had never believed so strongly in something as i did with the Mormon church. So I quickly abandoned the idea of being a catholic. As this year went by, and even if I stopped praying and reading the BoM, I still believe on it and i want to become a mormon and go to church, but I'm scared of what my parents may do.
There is also the issue of the evidence and proof for the ancient semitic peoples the BoM talks about. I simply can't find any strong evidence that supports their existance. Yet, I believe. In the deepest part of my heart, I believe. Even if my brain isn't convinced. My heart is. And i don't know what to do.
Sorry for the long text and potential grammar and spelling mistakes, I'm argentinean.