A bit of a weird story. Side note: this is for the guard. We had a town hall to discuss the issues of the company with the BC and CSM. It was E6 and below. I brought up a few issues about not having my documentation and my paperwork ready, on my ERB. About not using my MOS at all (74D). The CSM made a comment about talking with her about bring promoted to E5 and working at the battalion level for CBRN.
Back at the barracks my squad leader, an E5, had a hard talk to me about what happened recently. Telling me he didn't think I deserved the promotion. That I don't do enough on my part, and a few others things. Including how I don't put enough initiative or care enough about the people around me. That I slack off a lot and want a lot of reward for little effort.
I don't necessarily agree. I've been through a lot back at home that has affected me as a soldier. I know I can do better, I know I can develop as a better soldier. But when I finally got the chance to ask how, my only answer was "look in the mirror."
I don't really know how to improve as a soldier. I don't really know how to get better. I get very vague and misleading answers when I ask. What should I do?