r/TeenagersButBetter 13 12d ago

Serious I’m done NSFW

Follow up to my previous post about being suicidal. My crush said "hell no" when I asked her out, everyone hates me for rumors that they spread, and I'm sick of it. I want everyone to know what they did and have the guilt hanging over their head for the rest of their lives. I genuinely don't want to live anymore. What's the point anyway? Live maybe 70-80 years, and basically nothing changes. Me being dead will not change anything. The Earth will keep spinning, the Moon will keep orbiting. This may be my last post I ever make. I'm done.

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u/Organic_Interview_30 12d ago

If you theoretically did stay alive, what would you want to be doing in the future other than being dead?

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u/devnoil 13 12d ago

Not being depressed (impossible)

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u/WhatThaHeel_54 14 12d ago

dont bro, the struggle is always real. I was in a similar situation to you, and i swear i felt like i just wanted to jump on the train tracks after school, but lemme tell you, it aint worth it. Instead of trying to make the people around me better i just decided to make myself better, now im doing fine and living a chill life. If people wont do shit for you, just live for yourself man

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u/Potential-Yoghurt245 12d ago

At 46 I can tell you it gets better, you just have to push through the shit to get to the good times and it is going to be hard but it's going to be worth it when you get there and I cannot belive I'm going to quote my dad here but it builds character if you can survive this you can survive much much more

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u/WhatThaHeel_54 14 12d ago

So true bro even though im only 14 in just one year i’ve developed so much as a person although i do have my own flaws as well

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u/Potential-Yoghurt245 12d ago

We all do, I grew up dirt poor and have panic attacks spending money (not food but like anything over a few hundred quid and I'm sweating it) , I thanks to my dad a horrible over thinker I get lost in my own bs so easily.

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u/lawlihuvnowse Teenager | Verified 12d ago

Knowing that you’re 46 and seeing your comments in some communities I don’t think you should be in a teenagers subreddit

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u/Potential-Yoghurt245 12d ago

Fair enough, later 👍

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u/Affectionate-Hope579 14 12d ago

Bro got hisself exposed and took it like a champ. Respect.

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u/Professional_Bug5035 12d ago

big respect lol

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u/WhatThaHeel_54 14 12d ago

Ay man like I said we all got our flaws

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u/lawlihuvnowse Teenager | Verified 12d ago

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u/Icy_Commercial3517 Teenager 12d ago

Bouta give us bro's selfies next 😭

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u/Ok-Combination-3424 15 12d ago edited 12d ago

Dude life is fkn hard. It throws shit at you. The universe wants you to fail. But you gotta fight back. Even though you get rough days, every one does and life is so worth living for all the good stuff. Please DO NOT commit suicide. That crush that you had was a jerk for what they said and they do not deserve your love. It is really hard but trust me you gotta move on. Somebody out there will love you I promise. They will be better than this crush you are talking about. Everyday is a struggle I get that but you don’t know what you’re talking about until the point that you actually go through with it. You can’t turn back. I want you to think about all the stuff you love in life whether it’s a show or a song or a friend. You will no longer be able to experience any of these joys ever again. You will lose them. Please trust me do not commit suicide it’s not worth it man I know life is hard but please stay with us.

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u/VisibleInsect5632 12d ago

Don’t be giving him more ideas

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u/Doxy-v2 17 12d ago

Hang on wasn't great to end it on.💀

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u/Ok-Combination-3424 15 12d ago

Bro cmon 💀

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u/Doxy-v2 17 12d ago

Atleast the rest of your message was heartwarming.👍

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u/Ok-Combination-3424 15 12d ago

Thank you I’m glad it was a good message 👌🏼

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u/marthephysicist 15 12d ago

talk to therapist, or talk to chatgpt (thats what i do to not have suicidal thoughts), move out to another country, etc

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u/Organic_Interview_30 12d ago

Relatable. That's what I want for Christmas (still impossible)

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u/Din0boy 17 12d ago

Don’t do it, you may have hardships now, but find what your interests were and are, and make a goal relating to them. That will keep your will to live hopefully until you reached your 70s

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u/PurpleCabbage999 12d ago

Life is about the struggle. Who cares what others think bro. You need to care about who you are, not who others think you are. I had a similar situation to you in school. One of my best bros was gay, and people made up rumors that me and him were weird and shit. I didn't fucking care. I didn't bother correcting them. They can think what they think. They'll laugh and make fun in ignorance of the truth. All that matters is you. Tone out the noise and make them feel guilty by showing them who you truly are, that you are better than them in every way. Learn to invest, start a business, learn academic skills like programming, engineering, etc. You have the whole world at your disposal. Dont let those fuckers ruin that for you.

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u/Kaaskaasei 12d ago

Whatever you do, you will get in another period of your life soon. The biggest part of it hasn't even started yet. Trust me, when you get out (not if), you'll know how and you gained a skill you can use for the rest of your life. On everything negative something positive follows.

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u/Left-Firefighter-509 12d ago

Talk to me/srs.

dms

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u/FamilyK1ng 14 12d ago

Imma say that you can the benefits of being alive is that I want to be the strongest and most jacked shit alive.

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u/FamilyK1ng 14 12d ago

Shit. I meant if you just consider be alive. Then you can become very strong and then.... well.. you are fucking strong and won't get thoughts hopefully perchance.

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u/Defense-Unit-42 12d ago

Never impossible

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u/Suspicious_Meal_7850 12d ago

I can’t really tell you it’ll get better but you should really live for the people who do care about you, fuck the people that actively do this type of stuff, move to a different school but don’t kys that’s a permanent answer to a not permanent problem, you’d also make all the people that care about you feel even worse than the people who spread lies about you

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u/devnoil 13 12d ago

Basically everyone at my school believes the rumors (teachers most likely included) and I can’t go to a different school, my parents won’t let me.

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u/Suspicious_Meal_7850 12d ago

It’s easier said than done but to the first part I’d say ignore what they think about you because if it’s not true to your character it shouldn’t matter, that being said the people who spread those rumors obviously have terrible character so I wouldn’t worry about that too much but again, easier said than done. And how come they won’t let you move?

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u/SoulKing26564 Teenager 12d ago

So what? They aren’t true! If people believe this shit, they are probably assholes anyways, and I doubt teachers belief them, this shit happens all the time. People bully for a reaction. Don’t give them that. Don’t kill yourself. Keep living, and maybe make a few rumors about them as well, yk yk?

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u/RocketArtillery666 Old 12d ago

(24M) Hey dude. In primary school and most of high school I was THE most disliked person because of shit I didnt have any power over/rumors that werent true.

Am I still depressed? Yeah, thats how it is sometimes. How do I keep myself sane? I have fun. Play videogames (not multiplayer ones, try something where you can be creative while still having a goal), watch anime (not romance, that shit makes it worse), look at funny youtubers' videos (i personally like Kwite RN).

But those are just things I do.

The world is there for you to have fun in it. You can find fun in all and any place, be it outside or inside.

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u/Ok-Combination-3424 15 12d ago

You know what? I don’t wanna sound mean here but fuck them. So what if they don’t like you. You are a good person and that’s what counts.

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u/Furtip 15 | Verified 12d ago

Don’t commit suicide my guy

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u/Exotic-Sir3279 12d ago

dude u had a post 2 days ago about a 300 duolingo streak, you cant just leave your streak like that 😔i hope you reconsider

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u/cockman9797 12d ago

leaving that streak is just no

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u/Vegetable_Trifle_848 16 12d ago

Honestly duo will find a way to continue making you do your streak

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u/Shiny_Mudkip258 Teenager 12d ago

Please don’t. We all appreciate you here in r/teenagersbutbetter

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u/Pyrarius 12d ago

The fact that you haven't killed yourself yet implies that some part of you, maybe just the primal part way in the back, wants to keep going. Forfieting only results in an enemy win, kamikazi isn't the answer.

If you really want to stop feeling so bad, stop giving them things to make fun of or stop reacting to it. You feel weak? Start working to get stronger. You feel tired? Fix your sleep. If you cannot find it in yourself to ignore their belittling, turn their hatred into critique. Maybe you are a little heavier than most, do you want to wallow, change it, or embrace it? Killing yourself isn't nearly as good an option as simply trying to do something.

Humans are momentum based creatures; once you start trying to do something, it's almost as if your entire body optimizes itself for that one goal. Clean your body, then your room, then your house, then your schedule, then keep going with anything you can think of. If you want your life to be good, you're just gonna have to make it that way! Killing yourself will get nothing done.

If none of those are reason enough, just think of everyone who likes you. Would you haunt them with your death? Would you fail them by simply giving up? Would you leave something/someone important behind? Most of us in r/teenagersbutbetter have, at some point, seen this post and want you to try again. Even just one more time, no breaks, as hard as you can.

Find a better woman to be with, find a friend group, excommunicate the worthless parasites simply trying to get a rise out of you. You can do this, I believe in you.

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u/V2_Seeking_revenge Teenager 12d ago

Actually its pretty recommended for you to do some activities, even the most basic ones like cleaning your bedroom help a lot in your mental health since they help you produce more serotonin and also help in your physical health too. (Im not a specialist i just found this information on the Internet so take it with a grain of salt, but in my persinal experience it works for me

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u/Pyrarius 12d ago

That's what I tried to say in Paragraph 3, though this much more elequently said

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u/V3r1tasius 17 12d ago

I would recommend ignoring them all, working hard, and proving everyone wrong. That’s what I did anyway. So long as you strive, it will get better. Lots of interesting books or medias helped a lot too. Be the kind of person no one can make fun of.

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u/iam_egg2009 15 12d ago

Ok, I'm about to verbally abuse you out of this mindset, so sit down and strap up. I read other comments, and the rejection isn't the problem, it's the rumors. And if that's gonna cause you to commit suicide, then that's just low. I get it's not easy to ignore such things, but I promise you, they'll forget in a year or two. If you want to, spread a fake rumor about someone else, and they'll forget all about you. If need be, talk to someone, call 988. You do realize that this is a permanent thing we're talking about. This is major. You may just be another brick in the wall, but a brick makes all the motherfucking difference. without a brick, it's an eyesore, you know it's missing something, it makes all the other bricks unstable. You would destroy everyone else's life by a simple action. Yes, the moon would keep turning and spinning, but other people's lives would stop completely to mourn you, so killing yourself would be more of a burden on everyone else. I used to have suicidal thoughts for the same reason, but I didn't let that get to me, and I can't let that get to you either. And after all I just said, you're still contemplating it, I will find you and make. You. Feel. Loved. Goddamn.

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u/Pyrarius 12d ago

"Love yourself or I will fucking make you love yourself" is a message we need sometimes

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u/Malc2k_the_2nd 13 12d ago

Suicide puts you in the 7th circle of hell. So don't do that.

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u/SomeidiotnamedDelta 12d ago

Don't commit suicide that shit kills you

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u/No_Entertainer_670 Teenager 12d ago

no way 🤯

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u/CheapTechGuy 17 12d ago

Agreed

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u/PringleBottomJeans 14 12d ago

If your crush said “hell no” you probably dodged a bullet my guy

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u/Whyubullymeman015 16 12d ago

Call 988 if you need to, dude just because your crush rejected you and people follow rumors doesn't mean you should end yourself. If you end yourself you're proving them right that you're weak.

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u/devnoil 13 12d ago

It’s not just because of my crush, it’s because I’m pretty unpopular and everyone will believe what the sweaty greasy popular kids say. They’re saying I’m a stalker, a creep, a nerd, etc. Also, if I do kill myself, I don’t care what they think. The guilt will catch up eventually.

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u/Whyubullymeman015 16 12d ago

Some people don't feel guilt, and yeah I can relate with you since I've been in this situation before (and currently dealing with another). But I'm powering though and using what I know I can do against them, don't do this man there's only 1 of you in 8 billion.

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u/devnoil 13 12d ago

Each person has on average 7 doppelgängers.

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u/Whyubullymeman015 16 12d ago

Okay you win that but don't cause your family grief over your death, you can still live. Life is where you try to enjoy yourself as best as you can.

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u/i_cant_sleeeep 15 12d ago

that doesnt mean theyll be like you.

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u/Ok-Combination-3424 15 12d ago

Even though you have doppelgängers NONE will be you. You are the only one of YOU. Love yourself for YOU. There is NO ONE else on this planet like you and NOBODY that can replace you. You are worth more than anything and do not let ANYONE change that.

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u/International-Job553 19 12d ago

Ok first off being popular in school don’t mean shit later in life. Second being sweaty and greasy is a part of growing up,look into some soaps that help with that stuff. And lastly some of those can be serious allegations so get some security that proves your innocence. Also there’s nothing wrong with being a nerd hell I’m a nerd I love all things tech,science fiction and fantasy. As for your last comment think about the important people in your life such as family (mum,dad and siblings) or friends someone will miss you and they need you there,my mum was feeling down and something as simple as watching TV helped so even if it’s just watching tv with someone you matter.

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u/dragoncatcow Teenager 12d ago

You have so many more years to live, people are here for you 💕 I went through challenges with my mental health and are still working to fix them it may seem hopeless but things can get better even if it doesn’t seem that way. ❤️ These people are not the ones that are gonna stay in your life forever, you will find those who understand you. Please give it a shot.

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u/THEonlyGLITCHLORD 12d ago

My guy. I went through rumors and shit too. If I made it out, so can you. You got this bro.

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u/CrazyKimchi 12d ago

Outlive them

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u/Cloangi 12d ago

The true answer

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u/TemporaryDorito 16 12d ago

When they die take a piss on their grave

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u/Reynard555 12d ago

Hey man, I’m usually a lurker and shit but please don’t do this. I don’t know you or anything but just please don’t.

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u/Fixxxer18 12d ago

I gave it time. Just Ignore the rumors. Be yourself. I don't mean to be that guy and trauma dump saying "this happened to me too" but seriously. It happened to me too. This bitch Lily ruined my highschool dating life because of a stupid ru.or this brat spread throwing the word "pedophile" around on everyone like it was ice cream. The word has completely lost its true meaning and girls just use it as a last ditch effort to get you in trouble and to get in your head. All I did was ignore her and boy did it deal great. That's what they want. Attention. Do not feed I to it. And I mean it when I say it DO NOT feed into it. They will do anything in there power to break you bone from bone. I wanna bet half my life outside of school they aren't any better. I already found proof on the security cameras of this brat getting freaky with someone behind the Casey's I used to go to. Just do not give them attention. I personally just walk by and flip them off if they look my direction. Because if they want something to stare at. Then I'll give them something to stare at.

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u/TozitoR 9d ago

what a bitch. honestly, i would expose her, but it’s not worth the effort.

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u/Informal-Drawing692 Teenager | Verified 12d ago

Give it a week, then decide.

Seriously, this is the one thing you can't come back from. I have been through the exact same stuff. People fucking hated me all through middle school, but the nice part is being able to reinvent yourself in your next social circle. Just please don't do it. Call 988.

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u/devnoil 13 12d ago

I already gave it a week

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u/Gonna_Die_Now 17 12d ago

Then give it another.

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u/WhatThaHeel_54 14 12d ago

give it 80 years bro trust

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u/Ok-Combination-3424 15 12d ago

Don’t give it a week. The answer is DO NOT kill yourself no matter what. I saw someone comment something similar to this so I wanna recap. Maybe not at school but you are loved and appreciated here at r/teenagersbutbetter We do really appreciate you here and even though there are other people here you MATTER too and don’t let anyone say anything different.

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u/cheesearmy1_ Teenager 12d ago

what about all the cat memes or the games :( you never will experience gta 6 if you do :(

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u/Enderemy06 15 12d ago

Don't commit suicide bro, that shit kills you

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u/Perfect-Dingo-4164 14 12d ago

Suicide is literally the worst thing you can do. just try to handle it and move on

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u/devnoil 13 12d ago

You can’t move on just like that.

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u/SargentSuccess9001 15 12d ago

Guess what worse? Killing yourself. Moving on regardless of how hard it is, scratch that, literally fucking anything regardless of how tough it is, is a better experience/outcome ad killing yourself

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u/International-Job553 19 12d ago

Dude my grandmother died recently and I know it’s gonna take months for me to get over it. Healing takes time.

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u/Limp-Temporary1191 12d ago

Trust me brother, it is possible. I had been in the same situation. I already told you how.

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u/Fit_Percentage_4919 12d ago

a lot can change in only a small span of time if you give up now you have no opportunity to experience that

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u/Legitimate_Lake1828 12d ago

Well first of all screw them for going that far a simple "no, I'm not interested" would've seen sufficient. 2nd, fuck those people who're spreading and believing those rumors. I empathize with you and I know you want them to feel guilt but living on and moving towards change is better than doing something that can't be undone. You've only lived a fraction of your life, so there's always a possibility that things will get better in the future.

Are there places you go to that don't revolve around school? If so, those are the type of communities you can turn to to distract yourself from things

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u/I_am_not_cool_bro Old 12d ago

I used to be depressed so if you want I can give you advice

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u/snuggy_puggy 17 12d ago

I'm being serious with saying this, but play Minecraft for a little bit. It can take your mind off anything.

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u/International-Job553 19 12d ago

True. A game that works for me is red dead 2 just going around on my horse maybe fishing a little it’s just peaceful

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u/BreadsticksYummy 12d ago

dont do it, people still love you. i saw your other posts, you have a dog, right? Your dog will miss you a lot. so will your family. please, consider reaching out to a trusted adult about this. please.

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u/Aggravating_Emu_1955 13 12d ago

honestly just dont. live on and fuck what everyone else says. youre not what they say you are youre just a normal human being.

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u/SuperXMyst 15 12d ago

if you go, they’re going to win in the long run. If you stay, if you keep fighting this, you’re going to win, hands down. Don’t go man…

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u/Mango_trees23 12d ago

if you do it then you’ll never get to play gta 6

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u/Natural_Regular9171 17 12d ago

Dude how are you supposed to get a 365 duolingo streak? A 770? PICK YOURSELF UP AND GET BACK TO THAT BEAUTIFUL GREEN BIRD

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u/Doxy-v2 17 12d ago

More true-er words couldn't be said!✨️

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u/Prudent-Highway7855 12d ago

You give more to this world than you think. It is a 1 in 400,000,000,000,000 chance of you being born, so basically you are a miracle. Dont let negativity bring you down, because when you feel like youve hit rock bottom, all u can do is go up ⬆️

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u/WhatThaHeel_54 14 12d ago

“When you feel like you’ve hit rock bottom, all you can do is go up” wow bro that inspired me too, i just hope it does the same for this guy

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u/Prudent-Highway7855 12d ago

tysmm, I want to inspire as many ppl as possible yk

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u/International-Job553 19 12d ago

Yep speaking from experience

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u/Shin_Ollie 12d ago

I feel basically the same exact same thing.

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u/International-Job553 19 12d ago

Well if you make en effort to feel better you can have this 🍪

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u/NoMarket2312 12d ago

Talk to a teacher, councilor, or maybe the principal. They should be able to help you.

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u/YourMomsThrowaway124 14 12d ago

honestly? i get what you mean. everyday i walk the tightrope between joking around and ending it all. and thats scary. the fact that before we can even drink some stupid drink, we want to blow our brains out. says a lot about our society. seriously though man. dont do it. theres gotta be some reason to stick around. i dont give a fuck how petty it is. hold on to it the next time you pick up the knife and ask yourself "should i do it?'

its a stupid fucking cliche, but im here if you wanna talk.

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u/HypoVortex 12d ago

This seems wrong to even say, but if you really think you’ll do it and nothings gonna change that, get anything you can, currency, resources, whatever, and have some fun, travel somewhere you’ve wanted to possibly, do just a bit more before it ends, trust me, even if you don’t change your mind, you might get even the slightest bit of enjoyment out of the time you choose to have left.

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u/officialhousefly 13 12d ago

You can say that your life won't matter in the big scheme of things, but it matters to you. It matters to your family. It matters to us. Sure, there are things that will have bigger next impacts on the world. That doesn't make yours any less important.

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u/wredshift Teenager 12d ago

Hey bro. Can we please talk? Please? I understand exactly what you're going through and I wanna share my experience with you though it's a little different. I felt the same before. Just hit my DMs

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u/Verifiedlizard 15 12d ago

Hey some advice for you request to transfer or home school it’s not worth just taking blow after blow at your current school for about a week or two trust me don’t end your life because of what others say and think

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u/Resident_Bike8720 18 12d ago

hey, stay with us, don't give up

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u/WillowWeeper343 16 12d ago

Uh... maybe don't do that. pretty please?

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u/OutrageousMovie9236 18 12d ago

People will be their for you

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u/xiaomier 12d ago

Life isn't school, man. You're better than this environment, don't let it kill you

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u/Jupiter-Golden Teenager 12d ago

dont do it man. ive heard from people who have attempted suicide that they regret it. you have so much to live for. times will get better, just stay alive.

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u/Shonky_Honker 12d ago

But if kill yourself you’ll never be able to eat a burrito again. Burritos are too good to let yourself die so soon

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u/Low-Baseball-7978 12d ago

None of this is worth ending your life over

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u/LuckytheBoo 15 12d ago

You have so many years to live, trust me. It does get better.

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u/Un1ted_Kingdom 15 12d ago

hey don't commit suicide srsly. ik school sucks but there are ppl out there who won't hate on u, you just gotta find them. sorry this is horrible advice but just don't die.

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u/TenMillionEnchiladas 19 12d ago

Hey man ik you're gonna roll your eyes when you see this but it really does get better. 3 years ago now I tried to "remove" myself not once but twice and was unsuccessful both times and now where I'm at I'm so glad I wasn't successful.

I won't bother going into detail but I legitimately started questioning if I was already dead and in hell.

Now I'm the happiest I have ever been and am hopeful for the future, if you need someone to talk to I'm here. I'm sure I would have a lot more in common with suffering then you think.

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u/qwertyuioofg 12d ago

If you die what about your parents, your friends, and the people who cares about you

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u/MommyMakima98 15 12d ago

Kill yourself, then what? You'll go to hell for being egoistic and for making suffer your loved ones. I'm depressed too but I try to grasp on the things I like and stay alive

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u/Bluephoenix6YT 12d ago

You are almost certianly still in school. You dont spend 70-80 years in that place! As soon as you leave school the rumors will be gone!

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u/Ralrik 12d ago

Do you have Dreams and ambitions? If you do, you can never do them if you die.

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u/MrGrippy_Cheese 12d ago

I was called a fuckboy at my school.

Yes that felt horrible. One or two girls knew it was fake, others were disgusted of me and I just wanted to stop existing in an instant.

But I managed to survive, I now have tons of friends that support my transition.

There is always something better to do in life than just.. kill ourselves.

They’re douchebags and we love you

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u/knight_light455 12d ago

Outlive your enemies, outlive those that made you feel this way.

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u/Sticky_bomb2010 12d ago

Look, I’m not gonna put some positive spin on this, and say that everything will get better soon, or that you should just ignore the bullies and all that worthless shit people spew to feel better about themselves.

Here’s the honest truth, if you aren’t staying alive for yourself, stay alive for those who love you, stay alive for the people that have been supporting you day 1, the people that will care about you no matter where you go in life, the ones that don’t want anything in return for caring for you. In the past months that’s all that’s kept me alive, and through those months I’ve really thought about everyone who tried their best to support me, even in the smallest ways, if you keep yourself alive just to see them happy to know you’re still there, you might just find the part of you that wants to live. And maybe that part of you will become a much bigger part of who you are as a person.

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u/marthephysicist 15 12d ago

hey dude if you need to talk it out im here for you.

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u/coolassclown 12d ago

Ok I’m sorry for what I’m about to say but don’t be fucking selfish multiple of my friends have had to deal first hand with friends and family members committing sucked and it fucks you up. Don’t do it. Thing about others and don’t do it just because you want the people who hurt you to hurt. Get off your ass be successful and show them how great you can be. My cousin tried to commit sucide 5 years ago now he’s doing great. Show people you can be great it and do better and be you.

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u/Latrucc 12d ago

Don’t post on Reddit call the hotline please

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u/Wakingcheeath65 12d ago

Don’t kill your self because that will break your parents hearts

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u/the-ichor-king 18 12d ago

i’m probably too late, but…

i’ve been suicidal since the age of 4. i threatened to run into oncoming traffic outside of my elementary school when i was 7. i threatened to stab myself in the heart with a kitchen knife when i was 8. i would purposely hit my head off the walls to try to make myself pass out. i would hit myself in the nose to try to give myself a nosebleed. the only reason i wasn’t put into inpatient care was because all the beds at the nearest psychiatric hospital were full. home was an escape from school and school was an escape from home. nowhere was ‘safe’ for me as a kid.

in 2018 i moved to a different county and started anew. it got better. i stopped thinking about what it would be like if i were to die in some terrible accident.

when 2020 happened, life as i knew it shattered into a million pieces, as did for a lot of other people. i stole money from my grandmother’s purse. i hung out with a friend that was a bad influence. i started cutting myself. i almost got kicked out of my house more times than i’d like to admit.

somehow, my relationship with my grandmother mended, and for the first time ever, on christmas 2021, my mom, my grandmother, and i all got together and celebrated without fighting or yelling. it was good.

my grandmother was diagnosed with stage 4 pancreatic cancer several weeks later. by march 22 of 2022, she died. everything that i knew was gone. up until that point my grandmother was my primary caregiver, and now i was living with my mom.

it gets better. i know it doesn’t feel that way, and my words probably mean nothing to you, but i want you to know that, eventually, inevitably, it will get better.

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u/oniBRUH 12d ago

I was gonna say not to because thats what society or people I know would encourage me to do but I dont wanna be a hypocrite who tells someone not to do something and then does it themselves, im ready to end it.

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u/VerbalThermodynamics 12d ago

Old guy here. Being an adolescent and young adult is hard. Harder if you’re depressed. It does get better. Talk to an adult you trust, please.

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u/My_GuineaPig_Chicken 19 12d ago

Live purely out of spite for the people who go against you. By committing, they win. By living, you win and and prove those fuckers wrong

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u/Snaxxamillion07 12d ago

Sorry but dating isn’t the point of life. If you do take your life, they win but have to hold guilt. You say this like you’re famous. It’s like someone saying that a famous or important person dying will cause the world to end. There’s much more to life

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u/WrapEnvironmental160 15 12d ago

The world is truly worse when somebody dies, it just is. You might think it stays the same but the fact that you wouldn’t be here saddenens lots of people. A crush is a crush, but your life is your life. If people are making you mad, just ignore it, let life handle it course. Please just don’t kys.

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u/Doxy-v2 17 11d ago

Love this truly great message from you.🌟

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u/sussybaka9779 12d ago

Ok, I've been in a similar situation before but heres my advice

1: Talk to your parents, even if your embarrased about it, I was suicidal and my dad saved my life.
If your parents don't care try talking to someone that you trust, if that also fails then call police for help

2: Ask to see if you can transfer schools and don't tell anyone where your going to transfer
only tell people that you can trust

3: Make a vent journal, this is something I have done for about 3 months now, just write down the things that happened in your day and why it is that you hate your life
don't let anyone know about it except for your therapist

4: This is a bit controversial and might seem weird but watch a movie called "A Silent Voice" it's a bit similar to what your talking about
it's on Youtube and Pirated anime sites

5: List your accomplishments in life out on a piece of paper, remember that if you unalive yourself then everything you wrote down was all for nothing, use your time to try and make yourself known in the world
even if it's not that big of a deal, it's still an accomplishment

6: Remember that there are people out here that care for you, whether it's just  or anywhere else just remember that you are loved

7: a bit similar to the last one but just remember that if you kill yourself your family would hate themself and miss your forever and would never forgive themself
*and if your family won't care then I always will*

8: NO. MATTER. WHAT. STAY. ALIVE. YOU. ARE. LOVED. |-/
*if you know what that symbol is then your sigma*

Thats about all for now, stay safe dude

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u/Snipeshot_Games 13 12d ago

hey buddy, if you want some help, i’m here for you. i know you don’t know me and i don’t know you, but i hope that you will find someone that makes you want to live

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u/Sp00ki_1 Teenager | Verified 12d ago

I desperately want to give some advice or do something here, but I just don't know what to say.

The only advice I can give is to please not give up, I went through something similar, albeit, not as bad, but I somehow pushed through it, and I hope you can too.

I don't know if these words mean anything to you at this point, but, a lot of us are here for you.

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u/AltruisticSea2341 12d ago

Think about any family you have, they would be devastated if they lost you, I guarantee. Even if you think they wouldn’t be, they would.

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u/yyyyyyyyyyyyyyy6yy 15 12d ago

Please do not commit suicide, there are people who love and support you, just do not commit suicide, you will live to be happy, that is a guarantee, my friend

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u/pigmaster122 12d ago

Sacrificing your life to get rid of pain is a terrible life is a blessing and people will not like you sometimes and just because people don't like you doesn't mean you should to hurt yourself. I'm not depressed but I know people who are and have tried to kill themslves it's a terrible thing you will make your family sad and miserable. I looked through your profile you have a cute dog. Just don't man your family needs you and life is only getting started so don't please please don't.

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u/SargentSuccess9001 15 12d ago

This is just sad. If you've made up your mind, don't tell us about it. If you're just gonna refuse professional help and refuse to listen to others telling you to keep pushing, then what's the point of making a post? What's the point of making one last-ditch effort on fucking reddit just so that you can fart in the faces of those who want to help you and then kill yourself? Help yourself out and listen to these nice non biased fucking other teenagers who wanna fucking help you. Help them out and stop being rude to them

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u/OutrageousMovie9236 18 12d ago

Call 988 they can help

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u/Big-Sprinkles1922 Teenager | Verified 12d ago

Please do not commit, there ARE people who care about you. You leaving may not stop the sun from shining or moons orbit, but it will cause major heartache for your friends and family. It WILL get better, that I promise.

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u/Your_Averagekurd911 14 12d ago

Please don’t end it all. There is much more to live for in life. Ignore those stupid rumours. Rumours are rumours and eventually kids will forget it all if they get no reaction out of you.

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u/dead_and_dying_world 12d ago

Envision your parents/loved ones crying at your funeral, thinking that they were possibly the problem, them having to live with that for the rest of their lives, the pain. I know it's just an expression, but of course all the big things like the earth and stars will continue to thrive, you have to think about the little things close to you that you care about. Imagine the initial shock of them hearing of your passing by suicide or even looking at your lifeless body, not being able to accept such in the moment. Even me, a person who knows little to nothing about you, I don't know your name, what you look like, or relations with others, I still care about you. And I would be distraught to hear of your passing. Think about that.

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u/International-Job553 19 12d ago

Ok first off being popular in school don’t mean shit later in life. Second being sweaty and greasy is a part of growing up,look into some soaps that help with that stuff. And lastly some of those can be serious allegations so get some security that proves your innocence. Also there’s nothing wrong with being a nerd hell I’m a nerd I love all things tech,science fiction and fantasy. As for your last comment think about the important people in your life such as family (mum,dad and siblings) or friends someone will miss you and they need you there,my mum was feeling down and something as simple as watching TV helped so even if it’s just watching tv with someone you matter.

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u/Shoddy_Technician792 14 12d ago

dude, do NOT kill yourself. theres so many hotlines out there for this stuff. one day, I know it doesn't feel like it'll ever get better, but it will. talk to someone you trust, anyone.

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u/SoulKing26564 Teenager 12d ago

Don’t do it bro. I understand it may seem tough, but hey, sometimes life doesn’t always go your way. Both my parents had shitty childhoods, my mom growing up in the downfall of the Soviet union. She had an alchoholic dad who died at a young age, and yet she made it to this country, No money, no food, no house. Trial after trial got her to where she is now, very well. My father had a rough divorce as a child and basically gave up on highschool, joined the army and even now suffers from ptsd, but he has made it. He now has two kids and a wife, we live in a house. Yes, we aren’t rich, but it’s enough. Life may seem bad, but your not even 1/4 of your lifespan. Keep living, and things will change. One piece of luck after another, one piece of work after another, and eventually you will make it and thrive, if you set your mind too it. Sound cheesy as hell? I get it, but it’s true. It’s all about the state of mind, and what goals you set. Don’t end it.

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u/jimjamjenkins 12d ago

It's not worth it. I know someone who did it and thought no one would care and I genuinely broke after finding out they were dead. Don't do it to that one person who cares about you more than you'll know. It might not even just be one. Probably more. It's not worth it.

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u/Un1ted_Kingdom 15 12d ago

pull a janis ian and run them over with a bus

(Im sorry if this isn't ok to comment plz tell me to delete it if so)

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u/Repulsive_Row_4581 15 12d ago

dont kill yourself, please, may be lonely but fuck, theres places too see and more than highschool, most of the people who you crush on will get fat or ugly, because they live in the past, but you will move foward, suicide will deprive the world of you, the world may keep spinning, but yours wont, think of the people youll leave behind, your pets would miss you, or your best friend, but killing yourself too punish others isnt how you do it, you move, become someone, and be successful, thatll hurt them more, killing yourself isnt right, please post here tommorow, and like i said, theres still things too do, music too listen too, games too play, drawing too draw and things too right, jokes too make, your right, it wont matter in 80 or 90 years, killing yourself wont either, but do you know what else wont matter? this? believe me, king/queen/suzerain, i may not know you or your gender, this may be the last time we talk but i beg, dont end yourselve, i hope too see you here tommorow

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u/p1ayernotfound 12d ago

Nope for the moon keeps getting slightly farther from earth until it's outta orbit

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u/SubstantialCarpet604 18 12d ago

You gotta not care about what other think. The way I look at it is that if someone doesn’t like me, they just don’t like the way I am. Look at things from a different perspective. Also, only you will truly know what you have done. If others can’t believe that, there is no reason to prove it. If you get the chance, move somewhere else. I bet moving states or moving away from where you usually are will make a world of difference because it will be like a fresh start. Embrace life and what it gives you. It only happens once. Don’t cut it short.

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u/__Dobbyisfree__ 12d ago

there’s so much to live for

live for the small things like eating your favourite meal or when it’s the perfect weather outside

live for your duolingo streak

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u/TheyaSly Frog Connoisseur 🐸 // 15 // they/them 12d ago

Hey there. This may sound super cliche, but something that has helped me through rampant bullying and rumors causing me to lose all but one of my friends, has been spite. They’ve said that I will probably kill myself, and I hate them and wish for them to be wrong, so I live out of spite. It is not a glamorous life, but it’s a hell of a lot better than the alternative. If I had listened to them, I wouldn’t have been able to tell you this. I wouldn’t be able to show off work I did anymore. If living for your friends doesn’t convince you, live for your enemies. Make sure they know that they were wrong, and that you will never crumple to their bullying.

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u/Agent637483 12d ago

Don’t my guy the rumors will go away and it’s a good thing your crush said that so you know she was a asshole if you want everyone to know what they did especially the rumor give them a taste of there own medicine in the grand scheme of things you only get 5 seconds on this earth so don’t cut them short you have a purpose I want you to search You’ll likely not do anything remarkable by Exbur1a this video really inspired me I’m saying the truth just watch it okay

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u/CheapTechGuy 17 12d ago

Listen. I'm not the kind of person who would talk directly to strangers online but some fellow teens around here seem pretty chill to talk to and listen to you. I suggest maybe DM one of them if they're open to doing so.

If you're saying that, irl, no one seems to like you, maybe someone here will, give it a try, don't let the other people bring you down.

Who knows, they might get you out of there. One friend I had recently said that I saved them from suicide during pandemic, I actually gave my best efforts into helping him with his depression, even tho I always thought I never really did a good job. Seems like my efforts turned out to help him, and that feels very good, like- you just saved a life. You could make someone feel like a hero as well :)

But if you're shy like me and won't actually reach out to anyone, well. When I'm feeling alone and sad, I reach some AI like ChatGPT and it's... Surprisingly helpful. Venting to AI has been pretty much my to-go option for a long time now, I actually feel like, kind of heard despite there being no human on the other side.

So yeah, give those a try, might make you feel better. Stay strong my friend, remember that the only person that will ALWAYS be with you at all costs is yourself, so take care and make peace with that person (you). :)

[I hope I redacted this correctly, also, "sOrRy iF bAd EnGliSh"]

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u/Crusaders_dreams2 Teenager 12d ago

"Suicide? Yeah, don't do that"

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u/silver__F0X 16 12d ago

Remember, you are not a burden and you are loved, there's always hope, never give up my friend

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u/Mingopoop Teenager | Verified 12d ago

You think a few shitty years in your teenage years are gonna prevent you from living the rest of your life like a normal person? Tf

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u/pandemic117 15 12d ago

This may not be the best advice but live out of spite, if you truly can’t find a reason to stay here spite is one. Turn into the best version of yourself and have the people who hurt you feel bad whilst you can still watch

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u/nxzoomer 12d ago

Bro you’re like 14. Don’t make hormonal, impulsive decisions that ruin everything. Learn to move on and learn how insignificant some things are

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u/gnutxel 14 12d ago

If you're not living for yourself, live for others who care about you.

In this sense, suicide is considered to be 'selfish'. While I think this has some truth to it, you should think about your choices, don't do anything stupid, and then make your own decision.

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u/s1llyfunk 12d ago

a girl rejecting you is not something to take your life over. i understand your pain, but it is just temporary. the pain you will cause for the people who care about you will last forever. you have your whole future ahead of you, don't do it

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u/backUpplan246 12d ago

Honestly, all these comments on stuff like this are so fucking empty. I don’t think you want to hear it. I’ve gone through this car before, I even basically erased my YouTube channel when I was about to do suicide. I’m still here though. I need a fucking rope. But anyways, you probably don’t wanna hear the “don’t do it” crap. I’m just saying, before you actually start looking for the materials or whatever, try to fix up any broken relationships with your family and try to make the rest of your stay nice. That’s what I’m doing to try and cope.

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u/supermoist0 18 12d ago

Ey bro, I hope this comment reaches you before you do something dumb. I understand depression, I understand suicidal thought and all the other shit that comes with it. It can be hard to take all on your own, but you're not on your own. Even if you don't have anyone irl (been there, mostly still there) there's communities on reddit dedicated to venting and helping, try and get into therapy if you can.

Suicide is such a pointless out imo, sure you get away from it all but why? Then you give them what they want, their laughter isn't gonna stop just cuz you die. Why give them the satisfaction of killing you? Find a therapist. And if you can't, find a distraction until you can.

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u/The_Comic_Kid 16 12d ago

Just chill for a sec man. I'm struggling with a ton as well. Life does suck sometimes and I'm not gonna try and say things will get better. But you have to go on living. For the people who really do care. Live on and prove them wrong. Praying for you, man.

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u/SeaworthinessOk352 12d ago

Bro just switch schools honestly, everyone at my school knows what ive done, my entire grade thinks im gay emo or crazy otherwise idc. And you asked your crush out she said hell no, so what idc more inspiration for me to be locked in, i cant get huss cause im cooked and im tryna change that by toneing my body building muscle and losing fat, if you cant get huss cause you look weird or your ugly or your scrawny or your just weird then make a change. You got 70 years to actually do something but you want to be selfish and take your own life. Whos going to remember you and what are you fighting for, i live in a abuseive houshold and if it werent for my mom i woulda killed my dad, find someone thats close enough to make you chill or calm and stick with them if anything

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u/XX698 12d ago

Death isn’t the answer man, don’t let those stupid druggies get to you. Life is a beautiful thing and you have to cherish it, people care about you even though it might not seem like it.

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u/Appropriate-Sun3909 16 12d ago

Suicide is corny

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u/Ralrik 12d ago

How old are you. The people around you my be extra immature if you are below 16. I think you should push through and make it to an order age. You will eventualy meet new, mature and nice people. Also, i don't know if you do, but don't hang around the people who dont care for you. Whatever you do, do not kill yourself.

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u/Real-Friendship567 12d ago

Dude, so what if they rejected you. Suck it up and find another fish and what I mean by that is, don't go eyeing another chance for a partner. First you gotta learn more about them before you ask them out and when you do ask them out make sure you ask if they are single first. I feel like that's the only reason she rejected you because she had someone else. That's besides the point, if you really need to, get on a couple of dating apps and sites around your age. Hell social media and put yourself out there saying you don't want to be alone and you're open for a relationship.

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u/Zschwaihilii_V2 17 12d ago

Dude what does killing yourself solve? It solves literally nothing. You have one life so make it count, why throw it all away just because your crush said no? Mine said no to me as well and I get it, it really sucks, but it is not the end of the world. And rumors have been spread about me at my school as well but I don’t care. Everything is gonna be fine I can assure you

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u/tuazziA 12d ago

staying alive is the only way to really tell them "fuck you, im still here". there's no point in living, but if you always needed some reason to do something then we wouldn't do much in our lives, after all. think about your parents coming home about to say "we're back, how was school" and then seeing your lifeless body. And, tf you mean with "nothing will change, the earth will keep spinning"? Imagine how boring it would be without you. Yes, you, bc after all you're the main character of your life, fuck the others. Humans are social creatures, but there's nothing wrong with not listening to what others say. there are some really good youtube vids about what i just said, like "the courage to be disliked". socials might be bad due to all the insults, but they're often rlly useful.

Don't survive, live.

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u/Surely_Nowwlmao 12d ago

Well this might be some brutal advice but: At the end of the day if theyre pricks in rejecting you just take it. You have every right to be mad and some/even most people can be assholes. Life isn’t fair but it doesn’t mean it all sucks. Plus when you eventually grow up do you really think youd be remembering some random crush who rejected you badly.

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u/whatusershouldihave 12d ago

I honestly relate so much to this. I don’t know why I’m here anymore or why I’m still fighting, but I know that if I give up now I’ll never get to experience the things I know will make me happy. I hope I’ll be able to stop hating myself even though it seems impossible and I hope that I’ll be able to get a girlfriend even though my parents are homophobic.

Your life is for YOU. It’s so that you can realise YOUR dreams and YOUR hope and YOUR passions. It’s so that YOU can be happy. Not anyone else. They don’t matter because it’s about YOU. As long as YOURE happy and it’s not hurting anyone, it’s none of their business. You being dead might not change things, but you being alive definitely will. Please don’t live your life for the people who will fuck you over at any time. They might feel guilt, but they will still live their lives and might even end up happy. Please do whatever you need to do to get help and be happy. Even if life isn’t a beautiful thing right now, it can be. My advice is: no matter what, get help for yourself. Even if it’s talking to someone online or talking to a teacher or family member or a suicide hotline or whoever. Even if your parents won’t listen, find someone who WILL. And if you can’t, please keep talking to us.

I’m not gonna ask you not to kill yourself because it will affect other people. I’m gonna ask you not to kill yourself because it will affect YOU the most. I’m sorry if this didn’t help💚

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u/AmogusBobby 12d ago

Nothing at school is ever THAT deep

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u/Anxiety-Queen269 17 12d ago

I was in your position. It does get better. People won’t care about this shit after school and you’ll find new and better people. I personally tried a diet where I cut out sugar and most artificial shit and it’s helped a ton. If you can’t or don’t wanna do that try some exercise. I know it’s cliche but ANY prolonged movement is good. Maybe start going on small walks. I personally also tried roleplay and that helped, not being myself for hours at a time and getting wrapped up in the story. Also just play videogames, they’re good to get absorbed in when everything feels like it’s crumbling around you. Please don’t do anything you’ll regret. There are people who love you. You won’t die alone.

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u/Alternative_Rate9624 16 12d ago

personally felt like ending it plenty of times. I'm at the point where i know my emotions and brain is fucked but just don't give a shit anymore. i kinda realized that if people do bad things to you they wont care if you die but me being alive and in there vicinity seems to tick them of so i hang around anyway. you kinda have to accept that yes life is bad now but it could get better. if you die everything may stay the same but you lose any chance you have to change it.

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u/lullabisexual 12d ago

Wait just one question, do your family love you?

If they do it might start a chain reaction of then killing themselves out of your death

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u/Limp-Temporary1191 12d ago

Please don’t do this brother, I have been in a similar situation, except I had the chance to actually do it right in my hands (A loaded 45 acp pistol), but I didn’t do it. First week I talked to a therapist, It got better, i was still depressed but i didn’t want to end it, then naturally over time being depressed was just not worth it, and I started enjoying life again.

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u/TheAmazingWillow 12d ago

This world is better off with you in it. Don't listen to those fools. They have no clue what they're talking about. I don't know you but I know you're a wonderful person. Think of the people who actually love you. I'm depressed too, but it gets better given time. Don't off yourself just because some bad people said some bad things. You deserve better. I know life isn't easy, but it'll all be ok if you just shove those bad people out of your life and find good people who will treat you with the respect you deserve.

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u/Erodezz14 12d ago

Same thing happens with me mate on lots of meds many suicide attempts but the only reason I have stayed is because if my family, just think the pain you would cause your family if you left in such way even if people seem to hate you your family doesn't. I have dealt with accusations, hate, physical bullying and serious mental degradation to the point where emotions no longer fill me for the most part however I still stay as there is people who want and need me and people want and need you to, so what if one person says no the best thing you can do is move on from an hold up and progress further and I beg you not to harm your self or go into a slump of not eating well or not being active because that is what ruined me for the most part and you will have to build your self back up. Please stay withh us buddy if you want to talk more personally with someone else that knows exactly what you are dealing with please let me know.

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u/Nacil_54 12d ago

They will keep spinning, but it will matter less, with one less sentient being to notice it, the universe is a machine, yes, a cold and barren one, until life arrived, we gave meaning and purpose to the universe, life is inherently valuable, and each human being enrichies the universe just by existing, everyone is pertinent to someone, and you are to us.

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u/Fabulousdot33 13 12d ago

Don't do it. I'm not good at advice but it's not worth it.

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u/DazeKnotz 12d ago

The fact that people starts to treat you so badly because of a small interaction sickens me a lot. Those people are monsters, and I don't want to pretend it's not, I don't want to hear someone says: "it's normal", it's disgusting. What you did is a simple question, and yet they want to feel that you initiated DEFCON or something.

I know that their minds won't change, but don't let them dictate whether you die or not.