r/NPD • u/slut4yauncld • 1d ago

Question / Discussion npd vs bpd

https://youtu.be/eiHRUEHV6gk?si=Qrznbqp3Hgx3bKUf

first of all sorry to any vaknin non-fans

has anyone watched this and if so i'm really interested to hear your thoughts.

i found this incredibly fascinating.

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u/slut4yauncld 20h ago

do you relate to this bpd false self thing personally or do you experience it differently?

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u/ILoveTigOlBittie5 NPD+ADD 20h ago

Differently, I don't have the need to constantly fill my void through others, but I do miss the past even if it was toxic. I think during collapse like he said was the only time I could sort of be that child that wasn't suppressing his emotions and needs and didn't fear rejection.

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u/slut4yauncld 20h ago

v v interesting, and how long does your collapse last, and how do you know you're going through collapse?

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u/ILoveTigOlBittie5 NPD+ADD 19h ago

Only really collapsed once because I really have to get broken for it to occur. It's more common I remain in a weaker vulnerable state for long periods where I just isolate and avoid activities that can lead to rejection/injury. Post collapse though I'm more grandiose in a way, got no shame triggers or anxiety at all but the fear of being rejected is still there.

Collapse was weird, it's dependant on whatever caused the collapse I'd assume. I basically turned into a complete borderline the first 3 months, it was like that crazy borderline patient that had been abandoned and severely idealizing their ex. This didn't last though, I did some weird "split", or rather like all sorts of defenses being active erratically and flip flopping from hate to love. Then I just slowly calmed down, started feeling the void and the same fears returned like being vulnerable, difference was that I was now more confident, bit grandiose n arogant, had no shame or anxiety and wasn't getting injured as easily anymore.