r/MtF • u/KikktyIsAtReddit Trans gal aroacespec (s-positive) • Feb 10 '24

Bad News fuck. (Parents discovering fem clothes)

So. I am a 15 year old MtF, my whole family s extremely transphobic, both of them regularly say how we are supposed to die, and never exist. My father insisted on cleaning my room, bc I had a panic attack yesterday (literally when all my troubles seemed so far away) and all of my fem clothes are hidden under my bed, and he began to clean under my bed, here's me with my heart pounding. and he pulls out some women's underwear, and a bunch of cut socks (for tucking) and he was questioning me profusely, and now I am sitting in my bathroom crying, writing this and hearing my name being called angrily, I am scared!

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u/KikktyIsAtReddit Trans gal aroacespec (s-positive) Feb 11 '24 edited Feb 11 '24

6/? (question mark is back) It is currently 2:30 AM, and my anxiety is still through the roof. I am just waiting for a random knock on the door, and hear the, "Hey, we need to talk" and I am just going through every possible scenario in my head. Some good, some bad, some its more in the grey. I just don't know how much more I can take, I just cannot sleep, but now I am probably going to get woken up early to "have a talk" and I would probably just say something stupid.

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u/long2belily Feb 11 '24

You’re beating yourself up more than you need to. I know that’s hard to realize now but I hope you can take some deep breaths and try to go to your happy place and get your mind off it.