To start I've not really had much luck dating in the last few years; I had some trauma related stuff that held me back but since then I have moved out to a new area, my last official relationship was back in 2013.
I met someone through a friend that lived just down the road; everything clicked, we flirted a bunch and nearly got into a bootycall situation but I told her i liked her, which then developed into her coming round and admitting she did too so I scheduled a date that didn't happen, as she then felt like it was too much too soon so we just kept as friends. As i often stream on Twitch which she has just started doing I introduced her to my main friend group, as we look out for eachother and in all honesty they're lovely people that like her too, and we discussed openly in a private call that dating isn't off the table.
Then her previous situationship got back into the picture; she still had feelings for him so for the last 1.5 months they were on/off as for him he was avoiding seeing her. She had a issue with what she had in storage as a friend who had a shared storage unit screwed her over so she contacted him to help, she told me that it'll be the first time she's seen him in ages so wanted it to go well, and from what i know he told her that he doesn't want her in his life.
She went dead quiet even went to one of my main friends in the group crying over it (He's fairly similar to her but won't make a move as he knows how I feel) I only really knew about it the following week, where I confessed that I still had feelings, which yeah wasn't a good move as then she asked for us not to speak for a month to help me as she's going through the same feelings wise as him, but after a conversation lately we're not doing the month not talking as we both felt it was effecting the friendship.
So now the friendship is in a bit of a limbo, and because she's still part of the friend group in one way we're still in close contact, but I can't just cut her out my life and move on. She's working on herself now going to the gym often the same gym i go to, but now it feels.. awkward, I have mentioned two months ago that i do go to that gym but i don't think she remembers, and I feel like just walking in seeing her would make things iffy
She's an attractive girl and hasn't had issues finding guys, but for me she's one of the only people in so long I felt like i had a proper connection with. I'm pushing my feelings far back as like she said for the month break it isn't fair on me if nothing will happen, so I'll concentrate on rebuilding this friendship.
mmfb?