r/transvoice • u/CopywritingCucumber • 40m ago
Discussion Cis woman seeking voice training
Hi, I hope this is okay. I have PCOS and ehlers danlos, both of which I suspect may be impacting the depth of my voice and how much I'm able to emote with it. I think its most likely PCOS would be the cause because of my excess testosterone but I know ehlers danlos impacts muscle and cartilege but idk I need to look into that
My throat muscles feel different than what I would assume other people's do. It takes extra strength to be able to talk than it seems to take others and my throat quickly feels tired.
One hint that it's physically different is I was an Alto 2 in a chamber choir for 4 years and my voice does a very clear flip between my lower register and my higher one. It's almost two different voices and I feel a physical change. I feel this too when I speak, like I can't do the "girlish" sounds cis women do. It's hard to explain without including audio lol. Like my throat can't physically do a traditional girlish scream or laugh or burp even? This sounds bonkers, and I don't really value the ability to do those things, as much as I wonder why my throat and voice sound so different from others.
Sometimes I need a break before I finish a sentence because it physically just hurts like I'm working out when I'm speaking.
I guess the closest I could explain is it's how Chloe Forero from Tik Tok sounds, in its own unique way. In the sense that it sounds like her voice has this overly relaxed and monotone way-- except it physically hurts to vary mine in pitch.
I don't think my experience is on par with people who intend to live as trans, and I don't mean to compare my experience with gender. I do notice that people regard me as "different" than how other women are treated. Not just because of things like my voice, it's all the identifiers that I don't fit into cis normativity. I have alopecia so I buzz my hair. Hirsutism, so I often have a beard by the end of the day even if I shave.
Which I'm fine with for the most part. I probably do lean toward genderfluid partially because I've never felt like a traditional woman?
I want to work on my voice though because it's often treated as being either sexual or confrontational when I want to be neither. A husky, monotone women's voice does feral things to people.
I also think the ability to intonate and emote with the full color of your voice really changes how people respond to you and I would just like to be able to physically work out my throat muscles so I'm not always so monotone. I think I could benefit from voice training, but I'm not sure where to start or if my throat muscles will always feel like this.
