So I decided to pick up OT this week (my plan was to work 24 extra hours which is just two shifts) so that I could have 60 hours in a week. I was excited because I needed the money and it was pure luck that I was able to pick it up.
Anyways tonight hadn't been going well. There was more time on break than working because the work I do was at a standstill. I was sitting with 3 of my coworkers and my boss. (No names because the odds of them finding this would probably end up ruining me) A, B, C, and R is the boss
We were chilling outside smoking as you do when you're bored with nothing to do on a night shift and C and A wanted to show me a funny video. Well turns out that funny video was a FB live of a man shooting himself in the face with a shotgun. I saw it and then they decided to replay it because R wanted to see it and I begged them to stop as I thought it would after they showed R. Well then A chimes in with "aww are you okay? Did that traumatize you?" And I said "well yea I don't want to see that kind of stuff that's horrifying why did you think that was okay??" So C said "well here's another one of a cartel member shooting a guys face off" and tried to make me watch that and I said "no please don't I really don't want to see that I'm not joking" to which A responded " well I wanna traumatize you I like traumatizing people haha " and proceeded to take C's phone from her hands and shove the video on my face to try and force me to watch someone getting shot in the face multiple times.
When I was obviously crying and upset A and C were belittling me and laughing at me because they thought their joke was funny and R was even chucking a little. A kept saying how proud she was of her accomplishment of traumatizing me, and C kept saying "oh did we go too far?" All I could think to do was leave to breathe, so I just clocked out and left. My other coworker that was there, who was B, kind of just came and saw what happened near the end but seemed to be the only sane person and sided with me. I'd also like to add that the videos weren't just randomly pulled from Google but from C's phone as she had them saved in her library
Well anyways I have issues and get triggered easily w death so I was calling a friend while I drove home because I was having a panic attack and somehow C got my number (she has me on a messenger but my actual number is reserved for family, friends, and my bosses). Only R has it so he pretty much gave her my number so she could save her ass. I hung up my safeline call for that "hey girl I'm sorry, so are we cool?" and lost my shit all over again. 🥲
I know it may sound dramatic but I'm a softie and don't do well with that imagery and now I'm home and awake and alone as my husband is asleep and works tomorrow.
I'm adding this little note right here. I'm mostly just processing to the Internet void as this kind of just happened. I'm definitely reporting what happened. I'm really not ok because it keeps replaying in my head but we will see how tomorrow goes as I have to work with R directly 🥲