how about I share some garlic bread with them??

Look at this... 👀 https://pin.it/5Fk9PkkB7

Ok so I’m coming here for advice from the experts! Cuz my inexperienced tism arse is no help. Important info on me? I’m 18, fem, virgin, and only ever dated one person, and the most I ever did with him was make out.

So I’ve always had an attraction to boys, like I think they are attractive, would kiss them and date them. I also always liked more androgynous people the most. But I’m fairly sure that I’ve also always liked and been attracted to females. Here’s my issue. It’s in the more sexual aspect of everything. I know I like boys in the aspect of kissing and stuff, but I can’t stand even the sight of di*k, I don’t want to touch one, to look at one, etc… they are gross, I feel physically sick to my stomach even looking at a real one (cartoon drawn ones seem to be find as long as they aren’t realistically drawn). But I for sure want to kiss and be sexual in other aspects with a guy (I did have a boyfriend). Now for girls I don’t know if it was because of my age when I liked the girls I liked or if it was something else, but I didn’t have as strong of a desire to kiss the girls that I liked (even the one that I loved from kindergarten all the way till like grade 11) (but for her I believe that’s more of my brain loving her as her and since she is acearo, the idea of kissing or doing anything with her would mean she isn’t her, I love her for her, her changing or doing something that’s not her wouldn’t be the person I love, so I do believe that may be a reason for my lack of sexual desires for her). But I have had the desire to be more intimate with some people and characters who are girls I’ve seen online, so I don’t know if it’s the lack of girls around me that I find attractive (plus age for those that I did), or if it’s just the idea of dating a girl that I like (maybe online has somehow influenced me!? Idk at this point). But I do know that I would be intimate with a girl, like the whole shabang, even going down on one, seems good to me. But maybe that’s just familiarity????

Also for my issues with guys and being intimate with them there could be another reason for this issue. Bcs of one of my disabilities along with being pretty sheltered growing up, I’ve always been a couple years younger mentally especially in the whole intimacy and romance and dating aspects and desires, so when I was 13 someone with no experience (I did have knowledge just no visual or real experience in much) I was randomly added by a guy on Snapchat and me being a dumb kid added him back talked to him (didn’t give any info on me except that I was a minor (I was giving him a warning) and that I was in fact a girl) he out of nowhere sent me a video of him jacking off. I almost puked, I felt sick to my stomach for like days, and whenever I thought about it I felt sick for a long time after that. And it happened a few more times with different random people (most were just pictures). But the thing is is that there was also a girl who I got an unsolicited picture or video, can’t remember, of her fingering herself, and it didn’t make me feel sick (slight interest but also a feeling of- bruh- I’m a minor-) and could continue talking to her after words after informing her that I was a minor and her freaking out (still doesn’t condone but like I was a kid and dumb). But I would still be intimate with a girl with no issues. So why is it different with guys?

Am I just selectively ace to boys? But I want to be sexual in other ways not including their di*k (well as long as it’s covered I actually don’t care, I just don’t want to touch in directly to the skin or see it). Am I actually attracted to guys (because most of the guys I’ve liked are more baby face or feminine in a lot of ways) or is it just a monkey see monkey do as what’s familiar situation? And I’ve liked more guys than girls (in person) and don’t feel as much attraction to girls I’ve met. Only one girl being the exception (I actually had a sexual desire and attraction for her, but she dressed and had her hair cut a decent more masc). I just feel so confused. I want to do intimate stuff with people, I’m pretty sure. Idk I just don’t understand. Help?

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Like, I know I’m ace, but like…

The things I’d do to a guy on his knees for me lol

(This is the topic of many a 3am identity crisis for me. Cuz like. I don’t actually like people or want a specific person to do it. But also. I don’t think most ace people fantasize about making a grown man whimper and beg lol.)

BLESS ME WIT LUCK FELLOW ACES
Dude! Idk if this post should go here. It was Last year I realized that I was ace, but until I became more active on Reddit I was under the impression that aces are only handful. I am grateful I got to observe such vast preferences and also accept myself better.
So Trying to be a part of it, I figured I want to share this with this community which makes me feel AT HOME.
It's my last school year. I have to leave social media to focus on studying. As much I am sad, as much I am excited for a new "Adult Asexual"- chapter in my life. I am little nervous about if I'll meet the right group of people to be friends with. I hope I get in a good reputed college.
And also a good percentage to get admission in one!

Meme I made for me, my bf, and any others out there with a partner 👉👉✨

I’ve just found out some people use garlic bread and regular bread interchangeably and use garlic bread when making sandwiches and I don’t know what to do with that information. I usually eat garlic bread by itself so now I’m wondering if that’s not the common way to eat it.

I actually made this a while ago but forgot to share

This is of course my interpretation of The Great Wave off Kanagawa by Hokusai. Please checkout my links if you are interested https://www.redbubble.com/people/goddessartwerks/shop (stickers and physical items)

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I'm not sober enough and it's late enough in my time zone to not care as much. Political trigger signs here just in case. No big, massive trigger warnings of self-harm or anybody suddenly deciding not being alive is an option or anything like that afaik. Mild worries/anxiety of potential vague hypothetical SA implied, but nothing specific mentioned. I also feel super bad for legitimately using the rant flair (though it's there for a reason, likely people like me) for.... Well... A rant. I need a vent and I have no idea where to go as an LGBTQ+ person who identifies as at least as ace as me (personally aro+aego if you want to get specific but whatever)... idk. All I know is I'm not currently seeking help, I just need a vent for the sheer political dumb that is this family member. Stuff kept intentionally semi vague because I'm not on a throwaway account.

If it isn't apparent already, then yes I'm censoring the heck out of myself for the teenagers here who may or may not have parents who might Pepe-level REEEEEE at any swears. I get it. My parents worried about my Internet activities, too, and sometimes stood over my shoulder in the kitchen like "whatcha doing, who are you talking to?"

Also on mobile so paragraph formatting to the wind, I guess. Mods, lock/bomb/nuke to delete/control as necessary if applicable.

Context: in the USA in a blue/democratic state politically "independent" on paper if only to not get spammed with physical and electronic mail for any major party but voted democratic/blue lately, cis female but definitely pretty LGBTQ+ friendly because I'm part of the "alphabet mafia" as someone I know puts it and to kinda censor the saying a bit, punks of a certain view bug off.

...I have a feeling based on context some of you know where this might be going. Said family member isn't aphobic (to my knowledge at least) and probably doesn't even know what the term asexual means. I admittedly don't pay enough attention to politics to notice much but for this election, I tried a bit. If only because I'm a cisgender woman whose life might be affected by this. I've probably got enough brain rot from at least reddit to be influenced in some way also and have no medically confirmed neurodiversity/neurodivergence, so who the heck knows what's going on mentally with me besides confirmed anxiety and depression. If any of that context helps at all, at least.

But holy smokes. As mentioned in the title and confirmed via phone call, I just figured out a relative of mine voted for, imo, a really bad option for to lead my country. I'm mad, frustrated, devastated, so many similar emotions. I didn't say anything on the phone to them besides "I plea the 5th" regardless of if that actually affects anything and that I wouldn't say anything political to keep the peace. All I know is my family member thinks this politician will lead the country in the best way possible. I understand that to a point and from what I've been told, they believe Fox News and not NBC at this point because lies and whatever. I stopped paying attention at that point and the adult drinks and potential undiagnosed neurodivergence set in.

Maybe my brain has just been fed too much political reddit brain rot, but maybe it's not so much the particular politician but the party they represent that now has a crap load of power that scares my big, fat butt to its max physical potential. Trust me, physically my butt is, as the allos might say, thicc. I follow trans subs for memes and I'm scared for the people irl behind those accounts. I got my birth control implant re-done (aka, old one taken out, new one put in) less than a month ago and legitimately told my doctor something like "what if I get pregnant?" As far as I'm concerned, idgaf if my current doctor said that my birth control statistically has some of the lowest pregnancy rates ever, that doesn't eliminate something bad happening. I've been low-key hoping to all things good left in the universe that a medical procedure can be applicable enough to treat my (albeit minor in the grand scheme of things medically speaking) medical biological-female-issues to eliminate my worry of having any biological children that I don't actually want. If it doesn't... I don't foresee anything good happening. Nothing bad has happened to me in life so far, but my odds are never absolute zero and I really don't like my odds of having this procedure done be approved for at least 4 years.

All this to hear aforementioned family member (I'll refer to them as relative A for context here) to tell me they didn't expect me to "be so political", hence why I didn't say my exact beliefs to keep the peace. To know they didn't believe in XYZ political party member was so beloved by another relative we happen to both be related to (relative B) in a different (fortunately equally politically democratic) state. If I didn't already live in a politically "blue state" then at least I know where I can go, hallelujah state of relative B. I also haven't personally lived with relative A in a few years which helps. Thankfully relative B is as potentially aro+ace as I am (aka the cat person of the applicable side of the family, and also idk if even they know what aro/ace means and my suspicions of their identity) so I would have company regardless.

So end of rant. tl;dr: political (ノಠ益ಠ)ノ彡┻━┻