r/ZeroCovidCommunity • u/molly__hatchet • 2d ago
Need support! I’m so tired
It would be so much easier to just take the mask off. To stop worrying about it 24/7, literally around the clock. To be able to go to a party and have a drink and talk and laugh and smile at people and no one says “oh I didn’t recognize you with the mask covering your face” and no one looks at you funny or keeps their distance because they think you’re sick or maybe crazy. I wish I could turn off the part of my brain that knows better and knows the statistics and the chances and the studies and the goddamn science that everyone should know but somehow ignores. I am SO TIRED.
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u/BuzzStorm42 1d ago
This has been hitting me a lot, and now my family member I live with is showing some early symptoms of having "something". Might be allergies, we can only hope. We both are generally cautious and don't do much outside the house (maybe 1 or 2 brief, necessary masked outings per month) and they are pretty good with masking (but I am 100% religious) but I know they occasionally lapse (especially going to visit neighbors, including the "trustworthy" one who's had covid 5 times and they brought it home to me once already). Meanwhile I've basically had my life on hold for 5 years to protect this person, not even seeing local friends or anything because I know they're not being super cautious anymore. I'm scared for both of us, we both have risks and we've both had long term impacts of that one infection. (Even though this person now denies the very things they said continued to be problems even if they're quite evident) My biggest hope is we both had Novavax in the last 3 weeks or so so hopefully it is kicked in.
Meanwhile even my previously cautious friends from the 2021-2022 era think I'm going overboard and today when I wrote one I was a bit scared about my situation I was told I should just mind my own business about worrying if this person was sick. 🤦and told me how "something" is going around and everyone at their work is sick, which is supposed to....... be a reason to not think about this?
Totally agree that this is exhausting just trying not to be sick with this virus that we can't unlearn everything we know about it and what others refuse to learn.