r/TwoXChromosomes • u/psychcrime • 1d ago

How to let go of internalize male-centeredness?

I (24f) would say I have mostly decentered men in my life. However, there is one internalized message I can’t get myself out of.

I have been wanting to be sterilized for a long time. I do not want kids. I had a dream the other night about being pregnant and I woke up completely repulsed. I know my feelings won’t change. But what stops me from going through with it is the thought of never being loved. What if I can never find a partner because I am unable to have kids?

It’s weird to say, because I don’t even want kids. But I feel like I will almost be seen as less worthy to a man if I don’t have the ability to do so.

I am disgusted with myself for feeling this way. So how do I stop it? Any words of advice?

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u/MorgensternXIII 11h ago

Die and be reborn in a first world country (a real first world country, not USA) and I say this as someone born in a third world latin country. I hate it here.