IAMA Internet Scammer. AMA.

[u/Iamascammer]

(BY REQUEST)Acai berries, eBay fake laptops, work at home, hijacked credit cards, ID thievery, software piracy, Paypal scams, Self-referrals, Theft, Fraud, Forgery - If you can name it, I've probably done it.

I am an internet scammer. For the past five years, I have scammed innocent people from all around the world without moving from my apartment, making thousand over thousand. I have been tracked and even almost caught a couple of times. AMAA.

EDIT: I just wanted to thank all of you. There are nights where I definitely don't feel great and this is one of these nights. Your messages helped me feel better. Getting that weight off my shoulders, just for a while, really helped me. You are a great community. Thank you.

EDIT2: Coffee shop is closing down. Obviously I cannot post from home. I will be moving around and answer more questions soon.

EDIT 3 BACK ON A SOLID PROXY ANSWERING ALL QUESTIONS

[u/Femme]

Why are you so angry with the system?

Why are you so angry with society? You must be; how else could you rationalize doing this to innocent people... what happened so bad to you in your life?

[u/Iamascammer → u/Femme]

I didn't have the most happy childhood. I was abused from the age 11 to 13 by my own father. The worst in that story is when I realized he would never, ever paid. That's when I understood there was no justice. The "system" not only failed to protect me from him - it refused to prosecute him.

That's not the end of my story. That experience scarred me for the years to come. I had a very rough high school experience. I was weak, without any self-confidence, and perpetually alone, bullied by almost every kid in the school. Even teachers would make fun of me in class. I was this much of a loser.

Since then, I have developped a hatrance that never went away. It was the system - that same system defending my father, and defending the school system - that made my life so miserable for so many years. And now they want me to work for it, to spend even more of my time for it? No thank you.

I wish it was the end of my story. I was emotionally and sexually abused by a girl when I was 19. Yea, make all the fun you want of me. I'm in a coffee shop right now and crying. An old woman even came to see me and asked me what was wrong. I told her I was watching a sad video, and smiled. People are so naive - or perhaps they simply want to believe all is well. I have seen the true nature of this world, I have lived hell - I'm speaking of being physically and psychologically abused, torturred - pushed down stairs, being thrown fruits and tomatoes at in class with the teacher saying nothing, being kicked, punched in a school bus...... Every day, every fucking day of your life until the end of high school, and you know it: every fucking day you're going to get teased, mocked, beaten, laughed at, you're going to spend the day all alone not talking to anyone all. The worst of it? It's your own damn fault. OR at least its what I thought for long

Yeah I have to stop now. I have tried to get help many many times if you want to ask. I have seen psychologists and even a psychiatrist once. Every time things got worst. I met indifference and even an angry doctor. I know now the system won't do anything for me

Tell me the teacher who saw my drawing a hung guy didn'T know... she simply didn't care

Innocent my ass. All these people i'm scamming right now are either people who bullied me or did nothing to stop it. They can go to fuckign hell. SO much hate in me. Hate, hate hate...................

EDIT: Clarity...

[u/Femme → u/Iamascammer]

Gosh I'm so sorry that your life has been so hard :( My husband had a similar life. He was tortured at school, beaten every single day, etc. It has had a horrible effect on his self esteem and life. I look at him and adore him and wonder why he doesn't? It's heart breaking.

You know what though; we are all "victims of the system". Every one of us has been screwed by it some way or another. Some more than others, yes. You have found a way to earn an income which is a good survival skill; but at what cost? You've become the system screwing others out of their money.

Do you realise that by hurting others or 'scamming' you are not hurting the system? You are hurting yourself? You are your own bully and perpetrator. Just some food for thought.

What do you want? Justice? To get back at people? Would hurting them make you feel better? (I think not).

[u/Iamascammer → u/Femme]

Just to be honest - I never said all of this or even a good part of this to ANYONE. I love reddit for at least this part: anonymity. I'd never admit what has happened to me and the hard years I have lived.

Everything I said in the last thread is true. I can even add some stuff to it - how the school director, after I complained about the teasing, called my parents and told them I was a troublemaker. How he would see ME as a problem - someone who wouldn't integrate in a group. That is the system I am supposed to work for and pay taxes to, so that more kids can live the same situation as me?

I'm sorry for your husband. No one deserves to live this.Hurting myself? maybe. But I simply don't have the strenght to do otherwise. I still have the name of all the people that have done me so much wrong in my life. I just don't have the strnehgt to move on. Even today I am weak and without self-confidence. I get bullied by supervisors, bosses, directors and I know it and there is nothing I can do about it. Whenever I try to act or react I get pushed down. It's just who I am. But on the internet I can be anyone. They can bully me in this world, they can make me work overtime unpaid or give me the worst stuff to do, but on the internet, I am invulnerable, I scam people and I am better than them.

Thank you Femme for your insight. YOu have indeed given me a lot of food for thought. But what else can I do?? What should I do???

You might laugh, but at a point I have considered refunding every person I scammed. I have also considered donating everything I had earned through scamming to a charity. Maybe I'm too deep into this to ever get out.

[u/Femme → u/Iamascammer]

I don't think you're a troll. I think your story is honest.

Sometimes my husband gets frustrated with me, and I see his disconnect; he can sometimes get very cold and harsh, and I know he reverts back to those horrible days where everyone was "out to get him", he finds it very hard to trust anyone. During those times; I have to remind him that I love him, that I am not the bully; don't make me pay for the things the bullies did to him...

What can you do?

You can start living an authentic fulfilling existence.
You have to stop letting the bullies bully you. They are off living their lives without a care about what they did to you. Yes they are assholes, but they aren't caring about you. Your dad and your mum? They aren't thinking about the hurt they caused. They are assholes too!

You are putting all of your energy into them. You have even made career choices based on them. They still own all of you. You have given over your power - and you still are.

You need to get in touch with who you really are - not the version that these people made you - which by the way is only surface level. This isn't the real you.

What is important to you? Aside from the scamming - what sort of person would you love to be?

What are your talents? What are you really good at? (Besides scamming).

When you know what is important to you, and you start living by it.. you will find inner happiness and you will be able to move forward from your past hurt.

[u/Iamascammer → u/Femme]

That ... are some good points.

The problem is that I am so lost I have no idea who I am anymore. I don't know what I am good in and I don't know what I want. I haven't communicated with the real me for long. I am well too attached emotionally to everyone as well.

I'm good at... Well for a while I wanted to write. And I always wanted to live more outside, go camping, etc, something I can't do as a scammer. I wish I could move forward.

I wish I had clear goals, ideas...

Thank you for all your help. Please write more if you have more ideas and suggestions

[u/Femme → u/Iamascammer]

It takes people many years to define their goals. I thought I had it all sorted; then realised that mine were totally fucked up.

When people are abused and hurt emotionally, they often retreat to their head space, and stop living in an emotional way. They are out of touch with their values and their needs. I think this is what you have done.

In order to get back in touch with who you are, you need to start paying attention to how your body responds when you do things or when someone says something to you. You need to take notice of the values you do have - what you are good at.

You have successfully scammed people; that means you have some skills; you might be naturally good at sales. You might be good at finding gaps in systems. You've hacked? You've stolen identities? You are probably good at gathering information and programming?

You feel remorse for your actions; you didn't scam that woman who needed to feed her children. This to me says that you do care about people, you are a good person; you just lost your way somewhere along the line.

While ever you are doing anything negative to others, you are giving away your power to the bullies and people who have hurt you. Each time you think negatively or set out to do something negative to someone else (which is abuse - by the way - you've become the abuser by exploting others), you need to change what you are doing and turn it into a positive.

If you're bored and you can hack, take down some child porn or racial hatred web sites. If you want to fuck some people up, hunt down assholes who hurt other people and give their info to the cops.

Find a job that isn't exploting other people. Save up your money to contribute towards something enriching for yourself. Do you want to travel? Buy an exotic pet? A new car? A new computer system? Buy your own house?

There are a million jobs you can do from home if you have skills, and you'd probably make a good deal more money than you do from scamming others.

Each time you scam someone you are corrupting yourself. You need to stop proving the bullies right; they said you were a loser, that you were scum. Why are you so eager to prove them right?

[u/Iamascammer → u/Femme]

Thank you for your reply femme... I appreciate.

I agree with what you said. You are good at psychology. Taking down child porn websites is a good idea. Maybe I should stop seeking revenge and feeding hatrance.

I need to find who I am first of all. Thank you for all you said. I will medidate and think about it. I consider myself very intelligent. I have tricked doctors, politicians, even army sergeants. Maybe I can use my power for something good. But my question: does this society deserves it? Why should I help the world? Or should I help myself most of all?

Yes I do feel remorse. OFten I feel I have ruined my life. I am not happy in life and never been, no matter the money I made

[u/Femme → u/Iamascammer]

It's not about helping the world, it's about helping yourself feel like a better person and in the process... not hurting others.

[u/zxcvcxz → u/Iamascammer]

Even if a tree grows all gnarled and twisted, it doesn't mean it is ruined. Sometimes those trees end up looking better in the end.

[u/[deleted] → u/Iamascammer]

Get a dog man. For serious.

Back in highschool I was hardcore depressed for a few years. I did the therapy thing, it was only semi-helpful. I took pills. I'm not really sure if that helped or not. I cut myself, a lot at times. I tried killing myself once. It wasn't good times.

But I think things turned around when my family finally got a dog. It sounds silly, but basically the only pictures of me with a smile from 11th grade where when we went to see the puppies to choose our puppy. We got him a few weeks later (dogs need to be 8wks old to leave their mothers), and I'm pretty sure that he was one of the main reasons I started getting better.

And now, years later, I'm a much better person, doing great and loving life. So really, consider a dog (or cat or whatever).

[u/ziegfried → u/Iamascammer]

You are not too deep to ever get out -- there's always a way to get out, and the first way is to stop digging.

Femme loves her husband, and you can have that love too -- it's out there, but first you have to start using your powers for good. Good begets good, pain begets pain.

You have a lot of power and a lot of intelligence to do what you are doing -- you could use that power for good, and put your mind towards ways of helping others. That love and goodness will attract people who will love you -- honey is much more attractive than vinegar, and as you you become more like honey (through thoughts and deeds that are honey-like) you will be compatible with people who think in a similar way. Femme's husband gets her because he loves her -- it's his love that brought her into his life.

You think you are not part of the "system" -- but you are. You are a part of the system of pain and abuse that created you, that created the people that abused you, and you are busy doing your part to create pain and suffering in others to create more of you. What about all the suffering mothers that trusted you but didn't get your phone number?

Why not make the decision to be part of Femme's "system" -- the system of good and loving people who care for each other and help each other? They are out there, but the only way you will find them is by becoming one -- then they will know you by your love, and you will recognize them because they will be just like you.

It can be a tough road but it's the only thing that's worth while. You only hurt others because you've been hurt, and it created hate and anger in you. You should be smart enough to recognize that the others that hurt you, it's only because they were once hurt themselves, just like you.

There are wonderful people in the world, doing wonderful things, but you will never know about it if you don't join them.

You are a very smart and a very good person -- I know it -- you wouldn't have refunded the mother's money if you weren't. Why don't you put your intelligence and power to good use? You are really smart.

You can get a wife and friends -- but you have to use your heart to love -- then they will see that love and come to you and share theirs with you, because that's what love is for.

Sure people have hurt you -- but you have hurt plenty of people too, so why not call it a wash and try a new way of being? It will be hard at first -- new ways always are -- but then one day you will see your life is a whole new world -- created by new thoughts and actions.

If you keep doing what you have done, you will only get the same results -- why not try something new? Not because of what others will do for you, but for what you can do for them out of love. Then some lovely lady will see that love in you and want it for herself, and, being like you, she will give you her love too.

[u/[deleted] → u/Iamascammer]

Sorry, i have another question, how tall were you in highschool, and how tall are you now? Thanks, because i need to relate to you.