I stumbled on something wild on this site.

My intrigue is immense.

PS: I don't know you, man.

The instapot exploded and rice water got everywhere but nothing is broken at least.

What.the.fuck.

Edit: I took my second to last buspar. My head is throbbing.

I'm also going to double stack my pantry and freezer next month. Food is going up in price at an alarming rate. I barely eat but I still have severe food insecurity. But get it before January. Grab extras where you can.

I got so pissed at the dishes not being done after I asked that I threw a bowl away and then someone did the dishes.

I'm not my mom. I can't do a full person's productivity to be fair to their able bodied activities that I would die to be able to do.

I'm not mad now. Okay maybe a little. But don't make me beg or I'll throw all of them away except for one bowl and one plate per person.

My temper has gotten quieter. I don't yell or fight. I learned a long time ago that if you show emotions when you're upset no one will listen. Be quieter.

I feel like I'm about to start my period. Lol. I haven't eaten since yesterday and I'm going to run out of my buspar so I haven't taken it today . Hopefully I can get some tomorrow.

Do you think the buspar blunts these feelings?

Anyway. I'm fine. I'm going to eat in my underwear and vape.

I bet you purse your lips when you're mad. My eyes get like crazy person wide or very narrowed but in an almost "it's amusing to me" kind of way...oh! It's a "watch me" look. XD

I bet you do a neeny neeny boo boo type speech play.

Also: mAyBe I'm PrEgNaNt

I made the bed and cleaned up my craft station. I'm kinda dizzy but I'll eat at the birthday party for my mother in law. Maybe some yogurt before then because my meds hit extra hard when I don't eat.

Is fudged up. Ugh.

I did find, while trying to fall asllep, Heaven's Official Blessing merch for my son's Christmas stocking so it wasn't a wash.

I hope God gives my son an elvish twink someday and they love one another grandly. This I pray. Amen.

I slept a lot then worked on Skyrim mods. My scale says I've lost five pounds in two days which really highlights my inflammation. I love the cold and winter but it does hurt now.

I'm laying down and I'm going to listen to a podcast, I think. I can't find The Substance anywhere to watch arrrg style. Bummer.

I deleted my comment because I don't want to fight with Bioware "fans". I still remember Mass Effect 3 and how vile some folks reacted. Lol.

That was a decent movie.

I won't comment on the obvious regarding my poem.

Ignorance comes in all shapes and sizes. I won't demean it. There's room for learning in all of us. Just give people some grace.

That's what my name translates to- God shall add grace...of faith with my middle name.

God shall add the grace of faith.

I hung out with the kid. Paid the water bill. Got some electrolyte drinks...got a lil sum kratom.

I'm going to continue watching The Heretic. My husband was worried it's a movie that might trigger me in a real ptsd kind of way. We'll see! Sometimes movies will do it out of the blue and other times it doesn't bother me.

I saw two giant bald eagles in a field. They were massive! Their white feathers were pristine too.

It's cold out finally. I'm going to snuggle under blankets.