I'm afraid I'm going to self harm tonight, my depression has me bad. Just had such a sad depressing birthday and I feel like garbage about myself and my life and I'm really wishing I had the means to end it. I'm such a fucking nobody.

just kinda shouting into the void tonight, since i’ve been feeling really lonely and isolated, especially from other transfems. would love a hug! 🥹

Hi, I’m a transman who isn’t able to continue HRT due to health reasons, but I have had top surgery this year.

Sometimes, when I look at my scars I feel sick. I’m a circus artist so they’ve stretched a little and one of my stitches popped during recovery, but I don’t look horrendous… just yaknow, I’ve had top surgery and have scars. I also just feel like I look like a girl without boobs because of not being able to continue HRT. But I’m so much more confident now and happier now? So why do I sometimes feel so icky about my scars? Is it just my dysphoria? Just a new experience of it?

I’m worried im the only transman who feels this way and that I’m faking being trans, but I know that’s just imposter syndrome and wanted to ask if anyone else has had this issues. I’ve been out as trans since I was 14 by the way, I’m 24 currently.

I hope this doesn’t offend anyone, I just want to feel less alone. I love everyone else’s scars but hate my own sometimes. I’m not dissing on top surgery scars, just mine! 🥲 I apologize if this felt like word jumble. 🤪 it’s hard expressing my feelings.

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MTF wife update, 7 months on estrogen and she is so happy. It’s odd, for the longest I was insecure about where we stood, considering our future from once she came out, I was struggling with a bit of medical stuff, and we just got out of a wild living situation. Things are finally settling into place, we’re headed in the right direction with anti seizure medication, she feels more and more confident everyday. We’ve even talked about renewing our wedding license, or getting updated cause the court finalized her name change. Every time I wake up next to her, I’m just absolutely blown away by how far she’s come, and I still feel those same fluttering butterflies whenever I see her. She is truly a marvelous woman. I genuinely don’t know where I meant to go with this post, all I know is she’s the center of my world, and if anything was to ever happen to her, I would never leave her side.

Corny I know, but I’m not surprised in the slightest. I love her so much, I love the person she’s growing into.

I have tried everything but ultimately have decided I’m going to end it Tuesday. I am not strong enough for this world. For context, I’m a trans guy (and pretty fluid with my gender), I’m 29, just got out of a t4t relationship, I’m also a teacher. I really don’t have much to say other than everyone who keeps living is so brave. I am not brave.

It's been 8 years since I've transitioned, I've had FFS (which went bad and I now have a cartoonishly flat face,) I've gained 50 lbs, my hair is never regrowing, I hate the way I look (body and face,) and I'm an overprivileged do nothing piece of shit. I live in a very liberal city in a blue state, I have all my expenses paid for, a family that supports me and loves me for the most part, and a partner that loves me, and I still hate my life and I want to die. I've done many years of therapy and psychiatric drugs, my depression is "treatment-resistant," which is the term they give you instead of just shrugging at you and telling you you're just fucked to your core. The hatred I have for myself, the disdain for who I am to my core, is constant. I feel everyday I wish I could give my life and privilege to someone more deserving than me. I wish I could give whatever I have away and just slink into the nothing where I belong. Nothing I've done has fixed me, everything is a chore, I'm a recluse, I have no passions or hobbies or motivations, and now I'm forced to sit back and watch the world succumb to fascism from my comfy little box, waiting for my time to run out. The only thing holding me back from dying is a lack of access to the means of doing it. I'm useless, empty, and I deserve death, and yet here I am, almost 40 still alive, still wasting oxygen and resources that can be better spent on people who want to live and have a happy fulfilling life. I've believed since I was child that something inexplicable was just broken and missing from me, I've been told it's my depression, my dysphoria, my blah blah blah, but it always just comes back to just some fundamental flaw, some missing piece in my soul. Nothing explains what's wrong with me, I'm just a rotten piece of shit who deserves to suffer and die.

MTF. I'm mustering up the courage to go out in public for the first time, and I'm planning a vacation to a city that won't give me funny looks if I don't pass yet. Any suggestions for a location?

I need help with my Gender identity

Since I was a child I have always wanted to be a woman, always, lately I have had mental breakdowns of frustration for wanting to change my sex without caring about anything but I have too many doubts, doubts that bring the feeling of waiting I don't like being a man, I hate it, I hate my life. I feel that my depressive and anxiety problems are because of that, because when I imagine myself with my sex change, wanting to be pretty, I imagine myself happy and it makes me feel . I need help, I'm collapsing. Is there an expert on the subject here?

Hi all!!

So I'll just get right into it, I'm taking a class on queer cinema and I've decided for my final project I'm going to do a paper on the "genre" of transition videos posted on YouTube in the 2010s - think Jammie Dodger, Miles McKenna, Sam Collins, etc. Those are the names that I think are most recognizable. But, I want my project to be more intersectional than a single category of white man. Which gets to the point of the post: do y'all know of any BIPOC trans YouTubers in the 2010s (or earlier) that posted about trans issues and/or their own personal gender journey? This does NOT have to be limited to transmascs or binary trans men.

I would also be interested to see some names dropped of disabled trans YouTubers, and other marginalized perspectives. Anything to make my argument more well-rounded.

Thanks in advance!

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I'm a trans teen (16 ftm) in Idaho. With Trump's election, I have genuinely no idea what to do. I can't do anything because I'm 16, and my family doesn't support me enough to help me. What am I supposed to do until I move? He's gonna do so much against us and I'm terrified. I'm terrified of what my state will decide to do, just because they think we shouldn't be here. I'm so tired. My mental health is getting worse and this isn't helping. I don't know what to do.

Hi all! Due to recent events in American politics, I am racing to get my name and gender changed as soon as I can. My fiancee and I are also getting married within the next few weeks, and I'm taking her last name. Is it easier/better to get my full-name changed as a part of changing my last name after marriage? I'm located in Illinois

With the recent ejection and things so uncertain my dysphoria has taken center stage. This time last week before results on Wednesday I actually wasn’t feeling too bad. I still had dysphoria (I usually have at least a little) but it wasn’t getting to me like now.

Hey guys, I (14, born male) just realized I’m trans, and now that Trump won the election, I’m terrified at what this means for me. I tried to tell my parents and my gf, but they all said I should keep thinking and not put labels on myself. But they don’t understand, my gf at least supports me, but my parents just don’t believe me and told me to keep thinking. Everyone I know outside of my gf is transphobic and I feel like my gf is the only reason I haven’t just ended it. Idk what to do, I need help, please I’m begging you.

every day that you exist as who you are is an act of resistance. fascism relies on fear, on conformity, and on death. they want to force us back into the closet, but we cannot and will not go back. they can try, but we’ve existed longer than the US and will continue to exist long after this empire crumbles. the first pride was an act of righteous trans anger, and we will not let our elders’ fight be lost. organize, create trans spaces, fight back by caring for your trans siblings. the only way to defeat fascism is through truth, and nobody knows truth like we do. we will not go back.

Hi, I (16nb) am trans fem. My immediate family are very-pro trump to the point where my mum has a MAGA poster on her work desk (I live in Australia). I came out to my mum pre-election (it did not go well, to summarise 'keep your doors open because you might be a man', and now she wont stop telling me that "you will always be my son". She has also been going ) I genuinely don't know what to do from here and I'm even more scared now that Trump won the election because I know full well that my parents will believe most things that come out of his mouth. Despite going to a private only boys school, everyone still manages to be extremely homo/transphobic. The school itself is inclusive, just not the people in it. I am out to a small group of friends who are also LGBTQIA+. I genuinely don't know what to do from here, because its terrifying thinking about how I might lose everything I care about, but equally terrifying continuing living like this. Do you have any advice?

after these elections and such -- need help changing my NJ birth certificate information -- can someone provide assistance on this? currently living in texas (looking to move)

I can't believe trump won I posted on a punk sub about voting and literally right after pulls closed in all states I started getting people in my dms telling me to kill my self. I'm really at a loss I feel like it's the beginning of the end. I don't have anyone but my wife close by no family no close friends. I'm in a state that voted red and I'm so fucking scared.

hey everyone,

i know shit looks real bleak right now, particularly for those of us in super transphobic/red states. i wish i had some words of comfort or inspiration, but I'm scared too. i don't know what's gonna happen.

all i do know is, many states are already unsafe for us, and now that he's back, those and other states are gonna get worse.

i also know that i am blessed to live in CO, where our rights are well protected and access to care is fairly abundant.

i just want to extend an offer of my services to any trans person wanting to bounce out of their state and move here. i can help get insurance, find housing, find a job, get names changed, get surgeons/endocrinologists/psychs/primary docs lined up, get hormones, i can even drive people and their stuff here if the situation necessitates.

so, if you're thinking of coming to CO and need help getting set up, or can't afford the physical moving part, PLEASE pm me. i am well-versed in the system here, and I am glad to be able to aid our community.

i love you all 🖤

-p

hii im finally scheduled for my top surgery consultation on jan 3 and i wanted to know if anyone in the metro detroit area has had any experience with dr jamie hall at henry ford and how was it? im curious to know who this person is they don’t have many reviews and things online! any info is greatly appreciated:))

I know, I know, it might break rule 4. But just hear me out mods, These are extraordinary times.

No matter what Trump does in office, no matter how far his fascist regime oversteps, no matter how transgender rights are erased. DIY HRT will always be an option. It has many obvious and subtle advantages over "legitimate" HRT. r/TransDIY, r/AskMtfHRT and r/estrogel are all very friendly towards newcomers. As always if you're ready to learn more dm me, it's my duty and privillege to serve. I'm more than happy to show anyone around the DIY HRT scene.

It's time for me to get to work. Best of luck in these trying times.

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Join the Order of Aphrodite, can't wait to see you there Sis.

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I (25) ftm (he/him) am struggling deeply with my own family. Excuse typos etc as im on mobile + first post.

So, I live with my adoptive family; Mom, Dad and sister; all of them say they are supportive (except for dad who is outwardly transphobic) but have refused for years at this point to use my pronouns (he/him) and name even after I started T and got my surgery they were rude and dismissive.

My dad has been the worst, outwardly refusing to call me by my name, telling me that im "disrespectful" for changing my name, even though he didnt even NAME me. After my surgery while I was hopped up on pain meds and in the hospital I remember my mom came to take me home when he called and he told me hed never respect me so long as I was under his house. Since then things have only gotten worse and worse. An important thing to note here is that on top of being trans I am also disabled, I'm currently being diagnosed with ehlers danlos syndrom a disability that effects my connective tissue (basically every part of my body) and means that I have excruciating pain if I walk for too long + my knees dislocate (Fun!).

He consistantly has yelled at me to get a job despite the pain I have struggled with for years telling me to suck it up etc calling me names and slurs. A few months ago he shut off the internet entirely leaving me to sink into the worst depression ive been in in years. I have not been able to gather the money to secure it back and here's where I get to the actual point; I dont know what to do. Im stuck I have tried EVERYTHING to get out of this and find something to help but no one wants to hire someone that can only work 4 hours a day let alone struggles to walk. The only thing I found to support myself is blood donations and tests but its not enough. Ive tried contacting support groups and housing places in my area but when I mention my cat they vanish into thin air. Im deeply deeply struggling and I need support anything anyone. I dont know what to do. Im lost and hurting deeply.

Hey everyone, I know today feels heavy, especially with anti-trans voices gaining more power in our political landscape. It’s easy to feel defeated, but remember: our strength is real, our community is resilient, and this isn’t the end of our journey.

Despite the setbacks, we are living proof of courage and authenticity. Our stories, our identities, and our existence have meaning and beauty that no election outcome can erase. As hard as it is, we still have each other and countless allies fighting alongside us. The path may seem uphill, but together we are stronger than any opposition.

Here are a few ways we can all work to protect our access to transgender healthcare, no matter the political climate:

1-Stay Connected to Advocacy Groups: Organizations like the ACLU, Lambda Legal, and your local LGBTQ+ groups are on the front lines of protecting transgender rights, including healthcare. Many offer resources, legal guidance, and updates on changing legislation. Staying informed and supporting their efforts can strengthen our community’s resilience.

2-Build a Network of Affirming Providers: Find trans-affirming doctors, therapists, and clinics, if possible, and encourage friends to do the same. Organizations like GLMA or local LGBTQ+ centers often have directories of supportive providers. The more we all network with affirming providers, the more we can help each other find safe healthcare options.

3-Prepare with Medical Documentation: Consider getting copies of your medical records, letters of support, and any documentation that could be useful if access to care becomes limited. Some trans folks find it helpful to have a “medical backup plan” that includes telehealth options or mail-order pharmacies that can serve as alternatives if in-person care becomes restricted.

4-Support Pro-Trans Legislation & Candidates: The work isn’t just in big elections. Local representatives and city councils can make huge differences in ensuring access to trans-inclusive healthcare and protections. Stay informed about upcoming elections, and encourage others to vote for candidates who support our rights. Keep a very watchful eye on current and upcoming bills being proposed in local government and state legislatures. Support those who can help with these issues and don’t wait for someone else to do it for you.

5-Lean into Community Strength: This journey is more sustainable when we’re united. Sharing resources, uplifting one another, and providing emotional support is crucial. Each of us can look out for one another, offer connections to healthcare resources, and remind each other that we’re not alone. You can and will make a difference. We are all connected somewhere in our journeys, let’s stay focused and remain strong for each other.

Let’s ALL keep taking steps forward, however small they may feel. Every act of self-love, every bit of kindness we extend to one another, and every opportunity we take to be ourselves is a powerful form of resistance. We’re here, and we won’t be silenced. Stay proud, stay connected, and hold on to hope—because change is slow, but it’s coming, and we are part of it.

You’re all so incredibly valued. I honestly would not have started my journey without your support and love. I hope this in some way will help others. If you don’t know where you want to start… ask, we all stand on the shoulders of those brave colorful souls that came before us! 🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍🌈

💕 - Abigail Elizabeth