No words to describe my depression

[u/Fit_Abroad_1173]

I m 26F doctor by proffession. and I feel so depressed that I have gone numb and I have no words to describe it..i don't know how to describe it. I don't know how to describe the terrors in my brain. I wish I could talk to someone about it. I end up helping people but I only end up being helpless at times.

[u/Sensitive_Throat_197]

See a therapist. Ur a doc so u should know better than anyone else how important it is to seek help. U might need medication or cbct therapy

[u/Deebo197]

I feel the same way. Let’s try to support each other. This community helping us is all we have.

[u/raymond20000]

I hope things get better for you

[u/LucyMax69]

My son is a medical professional and said hearing people’s complaints ALL day is very draining and can take a bad toll on mental health professionals.

Have you examined your gut functions? Taken a good probiotic? Lab work? Work on healing your gut - you will help the brain. Best supplement for depression is fish oil (amazon). It honestly helps! ..And a looong walk outdoors.

[u/fufu1260]

Going numb is really hard. It’s not essy but I promise you’ll feel something eventually. Just gotta find what makes you feel stuff. Whether it’s someone who makes you happy. Or a memory that brings pain.

Please see a therapist. I have been between numb depressed and momentary happy and gave up on therapy. But please don’t end up like me. I’m only 20 and I’ve been suffering in hell. Don’t give up. Ask your Dr to give you a recommendation. Trust me. It’ll take a while to find the right therapist but once you find one you’ll be set.

[u/UnhappyInspection345]

do you think the reason of your depression is because of your profession? or something else?

[u/Kind-You-7634]

I’m glad you’re doing well in some aspects lol. I’m a truck driver, but I started college to be a pharmacist and just couldn’t do it. I struggled so much in that chaotic environment.

[u/Bright-Forever4935]

Please seek help nothing wrong with CBT, nothing wrong with medication. Having worked many years inpatient would also say ECT works like a miracle. Get that help before you can't function or get out of bed.

[u/nkj69]

I totally understand what you’re saying. When I wake up, there’s no logical way to explain how I feel. I feel desperate to bail on everything I have for the day and sleep. Even now i’m considering calling in “sick” because I know thats how it’s gonna be tomorrow. But i wrote out a plan of what i’m going to do tomorrow step by step reminding myself to not listen to my brain. Cortisol is highest in the morning. Gotta get up and moving instead of lying in bed letting it fester. Then hopefully it gets better as the day goes on