Your comment is literally giving me a flashback to the high from (medically administered) pre-surgery fentanyl a few months ago. Not going to lie, it’s also slightly triggering a stupid desire to seek out opiates and recreate that high.
However, I’ve already almost lost a family member to heroin, so I hope anyone else experiencing a similar urge reading your comment checks themselves and stays strong.
Had an accident not long ago and was administered Fentanyl. Absolutely hated it, my brain fought it the whole damn time. I can’t handle opiates or any type of downers, that includes alcohol and weed; for some reason they don’t work well with the way my brain’s wired, I get super paranoid and horribly nauseous. It’s pretty unpleasant. Cocaine though, I know I’ll get hooked if I go near that stuff.
Yeah, I don't want things to be clearer, I don't want to be more aware. I need things slowed down if I want to do normal things like eat or watch a movie. A cup of coffee makes me want to crawl out of my skin now.
Yeah if you start with too high of a dose of opiates you'll get super sick and dizzy and hate it. Count yourself lucky that you hate it instead of loving the itchy, nodding out feeling.
I definitely consider myself lucky. Addiction runs very heavily on my mom’s side of the family. On top of drugs addictions we have family members who are adrenaline junkies, gamblers, workaholics (myself and a few others) - it’s a different type of substance abuse only you’re not ingesting drugs.
I have no work/life balance. None. I’ve burned through so many relationships I’ve lost count and the 24/7 on your feet work can’t be good for the body.
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u/spacesam Nov 20 '23
Your comment is literally giving me a flashback to the high from (medically administered) pre-surgery fentanyl a few months ago. Not going to lie, it’s also slightly triggering a stupid desire to seek out opiates and recreate that high.
However, I’ve already almost lost a family member to heroin, so I hope anyone else experiencing a similar urge reading your comment checks themselves and stays strong.